Escapist-----I'm just a dreamer.

Two Partz.

2011-12-25T23:52:00.000-08:00

Wink of eyes,
Running on green grass,
The other part,
Your family,
Rushing in the alley,
Yellow and purple attire,
Styled hair and perfumed,
Over the shelf,
Friends Gossips and meetings,
Raised Eyebrows,
Sen-ti flights,
Books,pen and paper,
A long exam paper,
Tides and waves,
Over the red sea,
Lights and effects,
A big colored screen.

2011-10-01T05:11:00.000-07:00

That'z my 6 monthz baby who keeps me buzy with him all the time...Ooo n he has just learned to crawl and my all day's energy goes with him....i love you my baby...n yes i miss you all.....

jolliieessss :)

Motherhood

2011-04-03T02:07:00.000-07:00

A new nameplate got add to my name "MOTHER" on 16 march.we have been blessed with baby boy "Aahyan".A different world of feelings,attachment,love,care and all that which makes the life and world very beautiful.I am thankful to god with my both hands folded,he honored me with such a beautiful word "Mother".

Need every one's wishes for our family.

Jolliiesss:)

Come back home.

2011-03-07T05:45:00.000-08:00

Shined tears ,
Dried lips ,
Longing eyes ,
Shivered hands ,
Lifeless words ,
Hidden treasures ,
Gulped breath ,
Dull attire ,
Shabby looks ,
Gaudy house ,
Drained flowers ,
Moth-eaten furniture ,
Savorless food ,
Blunt candle ,
Odd cigarette ,
Forge door bell ,
Plucked couch ,
Soiled glass panes ,
Unmanaged wall hangings ,
Dried taps ,
Collapsed ways ,
Dead dog ,
Haunted entrance ,
Wretched windows ,
Reversed name plate ...

The death bed.

2011-01-26T04:11:00.000-08:00

That's so far away,
The redish color all around,
Unimaginable world
Just lined by others,
Can be white to some,
So can be Grey to others,
The body gets deceased,
And the soul flies,
Weathered leaves there and here,
Can be sunny ,
Or so can it be chilly,
Below the digged earth,
Or moving in the yamuna,
Fiddling in one's thinking ,
No more family to look on,
All alone in the dark room,
The hurdling voices ,
Joining of new world,
Do it be bad,
Or a posh,
All the deeds published there,
No more hard work to perform,
Only the time to calculate,
Just an aerial view of ur loved one's,
No more flattering,
Anywhere and across those seven sky's,

Shining dull or bright......

Miss my MOM.

2011-01-03T11:54:00.000-08:00

The tender touch on my cheeks,
That soothing lap,
Those kind words,
That special attention,
Mascot for me,
Oh i miss that tight hug,
Those soft kisses,
Spoon feeding ,
Concern for everything,

P.S:- I am speechless ,cant write more.Just miss her like anything...Have never been so far from here..I miss everything of my home,every member.....I love yuh all.

P.S.S:-Insha allah will see you soon after few months..We i will fly to India.

2011-01-01T05:06:00.000-08:00

A way to move,
Lille smooth... little rough
Scary road....an angle on other side,
Giggle sound .......the tears sprinkling down,
Pink dress and a bow........so is the white dress all over,
Oh that green grass and the dew drops.......the barren of insight,
Sunset in the open sky.............hisssshh and the dark way,
Beautiful life.......unworthy materialistic ,
A friend all through..........no one to listen the tale.

Black and white...but true.

Parallel

2010-12-19T00:30:00.000-08:00

At the turn,
On the whole,
Was that ground,
With blue sky ,
Hazel eyes to look on ,
That red fruit hanging on bunches,
Chirping of those beautiful birds,
So the scene was nostalgic,
The running boat with whirling sound,
White dressed fairy ,
Hush of water ,
Invisible move,
Everything in dark.

Intensity.

2010-11-26T07:00:00.000-08:00

That how life treats,
Ground full of kids ,
So in a moment,
It turns in barn ,
You laugh out of range,
So in a moment,
You just smile no more laughs,
A late night coffee in bed,
So in a moment,
You become chef yourself,
Your wardrobe full of attires,
So in a moment,
No more parties to put them on,
Snowy flakes and chilled winter,
So in a moment,
You are in a desert,
Nap in your mothers lap,
So in a moment,
You look for the sleep at-least,
A perfect daughter,
So in a moment
In-law word gets add,
Free and careless,
So in a moment,
Your world becomes different,
Throwing tantrum ,
So in a moment,
You get the one who throws tantrum on you ,
And you become the mother,
So in a moment,
Life makes its roll on and down.

Accept it or not,its truth.........

2010-11-06T03:07:00.000-07:00

Those different perceptions,
Of life,
Which ever remained In my mind,
Roller coaster to play,
Stroller to walk in,
And see the colored world,
While i was 3,
Shakes to drink,
Skaters in my feet,
Fairy tales,
A lovely pink bed,
When I was 10,
Woooo attires,
Attitude with perfect confidence,
Days and nights freaking out,
When i was 15,
Bridge of dreams,
So the would be in revering,
White long dress,
Pearl and diamonds,
It was when i was 20,
And now the life is quite different,
Dreams and reality,
Holds two different things,
You are in other mode of life,
Where you look for yourself,
In others personality,
And finally after long fight,
With yourself,
You accept the life,
Leaving behind those dreams...........

Your'z own

2010-10-20T01:30:00.000-07:00

It belongs to me,
So i can carry with it,
I can give to any one,
I like,
No one to order ,
Can play with it,
Else can use it,
No one to question,
I wonder how would it be,
If it wont be mine,
I cannot beseech,
When i had it in loadz,
I hope no one takes it away from me,

My freedom,my wishes,my dreams,my money.........

2010-10-06T10:41:00.000-07:00

I Believe... That just because two people argue, It doesn't mean they don't love each other.
And just because they don't argue,
It doesn't mean they do love each other.

ALONE....

2010-08-30T10:07:00.000-07:00

Do i feel it,
Under the tips of my fingers ,
Left me undue,
And undone,
Scattered in our shadows,
Lame stories,
Unheard things revolving around,
People around,
Still the emptiness ,
Has taken its place,
Wasn't able to judge,
Did i i left it,
Or i went far away,
So i could recollect some words ,
To say,
I MISS U ALL..

Lankawi beach.....

2010-08-16T10:05:00.000-07:00

I remember the the bare footed steps,
Sand whirling into,
The whooping sound of the tides,
Attracting to join in ,
And get wet,
The farari rushing ,
To the direction of the falling rain,
Raining all along ,
Made it more beautiful and sceneric,
The saving jacket was of orange color,
It was more fun to put that on,
Every drop of water so refreshing,
The partner along and holding hands,
Made it perfect sea ride....

July 21st...new home

2010-07-22T06:04:00.000-07:00

Hiya !
A smell of new house arousing with in me and so had a look of my new home at Saudi Arabia.Landed yesterday after refreshing move to Malaysia,it was quite cool affected trip.Enjoyed lankawi beaches,lagoon in kaulalumpur.....and more of it.
Will upload few pictures soon, haven't unpacked things feel so hot here....cant compare two different places ,yes my Srinagar and now Saudi Arabia...my room is so messed up,didn't made it,i feel so lazy and occupied with temperature....i need to make move and do some work....
Miss u all.......

Jollieesss;)

Trip

2010-07-03T12:53:00.000-07:00

Oopppsss.......was i so buzy in my marriage and then my hubby's cousin marriage ,today i gotta a little time to spent on my blog....
Marriage was all awesome,everything went good and was in tune.Weather remained sunny and yes of course situation in Kashmir was settled down for those 3 days (Fingers crossed).Now i am back to my home for some days and then back to in-laws place for some 10days.And then and then and then ....HONEYMOON in Malaysia .We are leaving on 15th July for Malaysia and then to Kingdom Saudi Arabia .Will update soon with marriage pictures.

Love all....

Tk cr.

June 20

2010-06-10T10:05:00.001-07:00

June 20

My wedding date....
Boss just few days left for my wedding now.I am getting out of block , i hardly get some time to fiddle through net and grab my laptop..Have so many things to pack, to arrange, to buy ...oh..oh ....it can go on....Now the things are on earth,anvil word had to be replaced by DONE.....
I am happy,confused,sad ,excited and even worried..its been raining here since few weeks and i hope weather will be hot on my wedding...i need your strong wishes and prayers....
I will be out of blog for of months now...i guess will start writing back when i will be in Saudi after marriage.Most probably in the month of August 2010.Wish me luck ......

Will miss u all......

P.S:-http://naziawedsowais.webs.com/
This is my invitation to all my blogger friends..

6yrs - 26 yrs.

2010-05-19T00:57:00.000-07:00

I remember ,
Those moments,
Flying on the way,
With the umbrella hanging on,
Enjoying those sprinkles of rain drops.

I remember ,

Those moments,

Jumping on through,

With fingers in mom's hand,

Follow that beautiful butterfly.

I remember ,

Those moments,

Dressed up in uniform,

Waiting for the school bus,

That last seat,to be the boss.

I remember ,

Those moments,

When waking up at 8am,

Would start the sundae show,

Playing cricket,breaking glasses.

I remember ,

Those moments,

Out of the class,

With the naughty expression,

To say i did nothing.

I remember ,

Those moments,

I was out from school,

To pop in college,

Gang of friends to say hurry,

But a say MISS for the school.

I remember ,

Those moments,

Ragging would start,

Our attitude,

Bunking the classes,

Throwing impressions,

Playing truth and dear,

Dreaming for the career to be high.

I remember ,

Those moments,

Dropping into profession colleges,

Thinking world on tips,

To be on cloud nine,

Boy friend girlfriend were part of it,

Some back-loggers and some of toppers,

And then final College Campus.

I remember ,

Those moments,

Corporate life,

A perfect style,

Growing up high.

I remember ,

Those moments,

And the final,

to choose the life partner,

Revering to be happy all now and then,

And you get a one,

Suddenly the seconds change,

And u fall from high,

No Colors inn,

No world to be dreamed of,

No more friends to cheer you up,

This gets deep in you,

So you find yourself out of world,

To be alone and

Look for the chariot to save you.

Very true.

2010-05-16T11:26:00.000-07:00

And here i move and say,
Hello hello hello....
With beats up,
And just few words to utter,
No more revering,
Pure veins of blood,
No white stains all through,
Ambience's doesn't make any effect now,
Its all out and just to say..
You are being loved ...

Towards day on...

2010-05-11T10:41:00.000-07:00

What i see ,
Is wings of HOPE.....

OUT

2010-05-02T09:31:00.001-07:00

Out to Delhi,its too hot here....

Wish me luck.....

White Horse .

2010-04-26T11:18:00.000-07:00

Say you're sorry, that face of an angel
Comes out just when you need it to
As I paced back and forth all this time
Cause I honestly believed in you

Holding on, the days drag on
Stupid girl, I should have known
I should have known

I'm not a princess, this ain't a fairy tale
I'm not the one you'll sweep off her feet
Lead her up the stairwell

This ain't Hollywood, this is a small town
I was a dreamer before you went and let me down
Now it's too late for you and your white horse, to come around

Baby I was naive, got lost in your eyes
And never really had a chance
I had so many dreams about you and me
Happy endings, now I know

I'm not a princess, this ain't a fairy tale
I'm not the one you'll sweep off her feet
Lead her up the stairwell

This ain't Hollywood, this is a small town
I was a dreamer before you went and let me down
Now it's too late for you and your white horse, to come around

And there you are on your knees
Begging for forgiveness, begging for me
Just like I always wanted but I'm so sorry

Cause I'm not your princess, this ain't a fairytale
I'm gonna find someone someday who might actually treat me well
This is a big world, that was a small town
There in my rearview mirror disappearing now

And its too late for you and your white horse
Now its too late for you and your white horse, to catch me now

Oh, whoa, whoa, whoa
Try and catch me now
Oh, it's too late to catch me now

What Hurts The Most

2010-04-22T12:14:00.000-07:00

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house

That don't bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let ?em out

I'm not afraid to cry every once in a while even though
Goin' on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I'm okay
But that's not what gets me

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And havin' so much to say
And watchin' you walk away

And never knowin'
What could've been
And not seein' that lovin' you
Is what I was tryin' to do

It's hard to deal with the pain of losin' you everywhere I go
But I'm doin' it
It's hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I'm alone
Still harder gettin' up, gettin' dressed, livin' with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade, give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And havin' so much to say
(Much to say)
And watchin' you walk away

And never knowin'
What could've been
And not seein' that lovin' you
Is what I was tryin' to do, oh
Oh yeah

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And havin' so much to say
(To say)
And watchin' you walk away

And never knowin'
What could've been
And not seein' that lovin' you
Is what I was tryin' to do

Not seein' that lovin' you
That's what I was trying to do.

In and out bricks.

2010-04-14T12:41:00.000-07:00

Thats holds good for me,
Stretching a graph of depression,
Verses the line of happiness,
Up...Down , Up...Down ,Up...Down ,
Blue merging down,
Grey making its new shine,
Those tiny hair cracks getting involved,
Rust recrudesce its area,
Slipping off was accompanied,
Voids were see through now,
Catchment area increasing with null identity,
Corners were filleting,
Migrants could be seen capturing the new town,
No more originality,
Hollow depths ,
Up...Down , Up...Down ,Up...Down ,

Today's mind sketch of people...

2010-04-13T11:07:00.000-07:00

My eyes are closed,
Could see the pampering world,
And calm was the other side,
Quiet voice ranging into the,
Solacing ,serene ambiance,
Heart rendering gave it other link,
Birds were migrating,
Plants were getting more greener,
Was i confused,
To get two different looks,
Or the things were same,
Polluted and other was clear,
I could go beyond my perception,
And come up with the new thinking,
Was that dark time,
Or i am going on that path,
Was it noon time,
Else i thought serene,
Could recollect the chapter,
It was the fighting people,
Who gave me impact ,
To walk through such light,
And get involved in duplicay,
HELP is the last option left for me.

No reason ..

2010-04-08T12:25:00.000-07:00

Had the Castle of my dream,
On the shores ,
With a piece of island,
The silver lining,
Looked man made,so near..
Howling knife and spoon,
All gold and diamond,
Fresh oranges,mangoes,grapes,
With big orchards,
Maidens for combing hair,
Pottery Mark Query,
Velvet crimson and purple robes,
And the colobium sindonis gown,
Rolls-Royce car i owned,
Dutch Royal horse was white,
That smile was tough,
Not inborn,
Stiled and contrived,
Had the glower,
Incomplete and disquieting,

Memories so fresh...

2010-04-06T11:03:00.000-07:00

Behind those curtains,

Around that gushy days,

With colorblind,

Camouflage time,

Rooting forests,

Halted bonds,

Those old and rusted wires,

Play the same solo music,

Makes me feel you are still here.......

Tulip Garden Srinagar. (Indira Gandhi Tulip Garden )

2010-04-02T07:27:00.000-07:00

The sprawling Asia's biggest tulip garden in Jammu and Kashmir’s summer capital Srinagar holds thousands of flowers impart a mesmerising ambience to this 90-acre tourist attraction in the Valley.
Nearly 1.3 million tulip bulbs comprising 70 varieties of various colours have been grown in the garden,the vast tulip garden overlooking the Dal Lake in the city. Located close to the famous Mughal gardens of Chashma Shahi, Nishat and Shalimar, the Kashmir tulip garden is seen as a milestone in making holidays memorable for thousands of domestic and foreign tourists who come to the Valley each year.

For better looks,clearity of pictures follow other blog of mine http://escapist-delineations.blogspot.com/2010/04/tulip-garden-srinagar-indira-gandhi.html

P.S:- Pictures taken by Nokia 5800 on Friday,03 April 2010.

One more DAY

2010-03-31T12:11:00.000-07:00

That was the time,
I got up from my relaxing chair,
Just trying to peep out on my windows,
To feel the calm breath ,
With those tiny bluish eyes,
I wonder to see the working world,
There was the cat sitting on the bench,
Behind the road and those bushy trees,
Few miles away was that gardener,
Those purple tulips looked serene,
So was the road vendor busy with his business,
He had those shiny tomatoes,
With an expression of selling it off,
And the child caught me up,
His mother holding his hand,
Gearing him up for school,
In the middle of road,
That skinny couple on with themselves,
Looked starting the flowing day,
Of love,care, togetherness,
That fat man,
Rolling on with the count of money,
With the fraction of seconds,
Moved that Porsche 911 Carrera S,
It was just to disturb that calm ambiance,
Here i was on my wooden window
with those crystal clear window panes,
Outside look gave me a day to my one more day.....

That's MOTHER.....

2010-03-25T09:57:00.000-07:00

On the way to my life,
Down those persistent days,
Under serene shadow,
Feel the pictorial care,

On the way to my life,
Down those persistent days,
The first touch of finger,
And the open hearted smile on lips,

On the way to my life,

Down those persistent days,

Tripping on the nano tear,

Bewildered and affrighted expression,

On the way to my life,

Down those persistent days,

Dada and mum uttering ,

Flow less ambiance of happiness,

On the way to my life,

Down those persistent days,

That crawl on the day,

All those new and exciting expectations of life start,

On the way to my life,

Down those persistent days,

Tantrum on on pity things,

Well handled with smile,

On the way to my life,

Down those persistent days,

All those endless moments,

Captured and saved in my life ever...

Thats My "MOTHER"

So ...

2010-03-20T11:07:00.000-07:00

So arduous,
So blind ,
So clumsy
So discomfit,
So discombobulated,
So embarrassing
So flurry,
So graveling,

So haunted,

So invaginate,

So jumbled,

So knocked down,

So lamentable,

So misdirected,

So infamous,

So pathetic,
So peeved,
So ragging,
So spiflicating,
So tenuous,
So turned down,
So tattered,
So unappealing,
So vile,
So worried......

That was the day :-)

2010-03-17T11:52:00.000-07:00

Perfect scene for the day end it was,
When the sun was orange,
And the sky prototyped the color,
With the subtlety effect by mountains,
Oh that was so thoroughgoing time,
The place was reverberating so soothly,
Every color was so melded,
Those breaches were difficult to locate,
And so was water overlooking the sun's shade ,
Perplex of sun set colors,
Just wink of eyes,
Was enough to take it along,
Sitting along the sub way,
Peeping through those interruptions......
That was the day when u promised to make these things happen again.

I apologies dude..

2010-03-13T08:23:00.000-08:00

I was on the bright window,
No black clouds,
And the voice was cheerful,
Could not make the other way stand,
I was in my happy world,
Rejoicing every second,
And rejoicing life,
Lamentable was the other side,
So didn't not felt a glimpse of it,
I was in life's fantasy,
Made me explain his mystery,
I rebounded back to the sad tale,
But was harsh and edgy ,
Was distressed of my way,
And in a while the situation,
Went out of my mind,
Life is a a Masterpiece and journey for me,
Though got a time again,
To pound into the same old sad tale,
And now was hurt strong,
Didn't chipped in my hand,
I was in life's harmony,
And then again made it more afflictive,
When i footed down,
To realize the part,
I was late ,
I invoke APOLOGIZE,

"I AM SORRY "

Class Tale.

2010-03-07T07:20:00.000-08:00

On the other row of my class,
Was my first love,
When i was in first standard,
He has that hazel color eyes,
With curly hair,
And that fair complexion,
We would gaze each other,
All through the crowded class,
With that fresh smile,
To pass on,
Lunch together,
With the roasted sandwich,
Which was his favorite,
Plan to implement to get a common bench,
Oh ! that first wink,
I still remember,
Tears in eyes,
When teacher shouted on one of us,
Woopppsss that was so cute,
Teasing of friends,
Waiting in that play ground ,
On that selected bench,
Same color of attires on school functions,
Oh that box of candies and chocolates,
Sharing of sweets,
All that was so innocent,
I still remember that fragile friendship..............................

All gone....

2010-03-03T09:59:00.000-08:00

Through and through,
Amid of the sunshine,
A radiating light,
Peeping through the mulberries,
Birds looking for the destined fly,
A natural attraction ,
To be called bounding,
Smell of the owned land,
Mango tree along the shore,
Floating paper boat,
Morning rays on my bed,
A touch by hand,
Can by felt by own land,
Left over dreams far away,
For the home town,
Rushing through the paddy fields,
Ripening songs for maize,
Morning in orchards,
Chilled water of tape,
Every day congregation,
Water logged roads,
Boats on shoulders,
Playing hopscotch,
When the rains are all gone,
My home town,
Will be standing by rainbow....

Unforced law...

2010-03-01T07:24:00.000-08:00

So dense to get into,

Even not that vivid,

to loop ,

Was so convincing,

Could be life long words,

An eradicate throwing,

Palpating times,

To appreciate the moments.

Strong support around the dunes,

So stoical like a new born baby,

Yelling and throbbing stones,

Something impeded with,

Secure message ,

With folded papers,

Water in force,

Holding those unnamed seconds,

For to be safe ,

And so growing tall meadows,

Erosion been on tips,

Can be massive,

O so fragile it has to be.......

Station.....and i hate it.

2010-02-25T14:23:00.000-08:00

Friday evening ,
He is having train,
Miles far he has to cover,
And the bags are ready,
Waiting for the signal to beep,
He had smile for his family,
So i had glower,
How will i take my days solo,
Moments flashing in,
Walk on streets,
Lightz off,
Sitting on bench,
Ride on bike,
Domino's pizza,
Surprise kiss ,
Good night hug,
Looking at clear sky,
To follow me with rain,
When i will be all unequaled,
I was dense for a while,
No eye to eye contact,
The tight touch of hand,
Eyes reeking ,
A silence inside,
To get him back,
So i hate the travel down,
And i hate the good bye bid...

Wedding time.....

2010-02-22T09:12:00.001-08:00

Love story:…

We were both young when I first saw you
I close my eyes
And the flashback starts
I'm standing there
On a balcony in summer air

See the lights
See the party, the ball gowns
I see you make your way through the crowd
And say hello, little did I know

That you were Romeo, you were throwing pebbles
And my daddy said stay away from Juliet
And I was crying on the staircase
Begging you please don't go, and I said

Romeo take me somewhere we can be alone
I'll be waiting all there's left to do is run
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess
It's a love story baby just say yes

So I sneak out to the garden to see you
We keep quiet 'cause we're dead if they knew
So close your eyes
Escape this town for a little while

'Cause you were Romeo, I was a scarlet letter
And my daddy said stay away from Juliet
But you were everything to me
I was begging you please don't go and I said

Romeo take me somewhere we can be alone
I'll be waiting all there's left to do is run
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess
It's a love story baby just say yes

Romeo save me, they try to tell me how to feel
This love is difficult, but it's real
Don't be afraid, we'll make it out of this mess
It's a love story baby just say yes
Oh oh

I got tired of waiting
Wondering if you were ever coming around
My faith in you is fading
When I met you on the outskirts of town, and I said

Romeo save me I've been feeling so alone
I keep waiting for you but you never come
Is this in my head? I don't know what to think
He knelt to the ground and pulled out a ring

And said, marry me Juliet
You'll never have to be alone
I love you and that's all I really know
I talked to your dad, go pick out a white dress
It's a love story baby just say yes

Oh, oh, oh, oh
'Cause we were both young when I first saw you

Airport....

2010-02-15T22:50:00.000-08:00

Yes finally at Delhi airport waiting for the flight,its been delayed two times from morning 8:35am...fingers crossed coz flight depends on weather forecast...i want to be home....

Missed you all.....

Loove...

Jolliieesss:)

Step 1,2,3....

2010-02-04T10:46:00.000-08:00

And i am moving,
I see the path ,
Shiny and lustrous,
No diversion,
All the way a single line,
Making it up to guide,
Shoulders were enough strong,
No hair cracks,
Green was divider,
Macadam made it smooth,
And the drive was safe,

P.S:- I will be out of station for 10 days,so wont be writing here...and will miss my all good friends here...I am going out for some shopping.....see you all soon......
Love all....
Jolliiees:)

Romance language....

2010-02-01T09:48:00.000-08:00

I was in his arms,
Nothing to look for mre,
We were just into each other,
Nothing more to survive,
He hold me tight,
So do i close my eyes,
No boundaries over to think,
Had the ultimate springing,
Had the strong shoulder,
To put on,
No thought whirling,
The sun was shining,
Or must be the stars,
Can it be moon light,
Coz i was no more me....

I am just a dreamer.

2010-01-28T09:01:00.000-08:00

Gazing through the window at the world outside
Wondering will mother earth survive
Hoping that mankind will stop abusing her sometime

After all there's only just the two of us
And here we are still fighting for our lives
Watching all of history repeat itself
Time after time

I'm just a dreamer
I dream my life away
I'm just a dreamer
Who dreams of better days

I watch the sun go down like everyone of us
I'm hoping that the dawn will bring a sign
A better place for those Who will come after us ...
This time

I'm just a dreamer
I dream my life away oh yeah
I'm just a dreamer
Who dreams of better days

Your higher power may be God or Jesus Christ
It doesn't really matter much to me
Without each others help there ain't no hope for us
I'm living in a dream of fantasy
Oh yeah, yeah, yeah

If only we could all just find serenity
It would be nice if we could live as one
When will all this anger, hate and biggotry ...
Be gone?

I'm just a dreamer
I dream my life away
Today
I'm just a dreamer
Who dreams of better days
Okay
I'm just a dreamer
Who's searching for the way
Today
I'm just a dreamer
Dreaming my life away
Oh yeah, yeah, yeah

Few more steps.

2010-01-23T10:32:00.000-08:00

Those few steps,
Ahead,
So made the miles difference,
Those few steps,
Too close to comfort,
Those few steps,
So the house is built again ,
Those few steps,
And the ashes were found,
Those few steps,
Waves looked rejoining,
Those few steps,
Area was flooded,
Those few steps,
The long life..

Message from chariot.

2010-01-18T09:19:00.000-08:00

Dark was the night,
Midnight of 17 jan 2010,
Lights were closed back time,
No view was clear,
Mind was blocked,
Had only one options to surveil,
Consummate darkness for my life,
Guess that was to self-annihilation,
So was i clunged to the desired option,
No body had the thought to disturb my level of choosing it,
Was so stubborn to attempt it,
Just a move of one sec,
And my soul would been flying,
And with a flash of light i heard those heavy sounds,
Drifting towards me,
A golden CHARIOT,
I was stunned for the time,
And when i saw it ,
It was my friend in it with a message from god,
Guess,
Some second option upholding in his hands,
And read it loud
"MY CHILD YOU HAVE A BEAUTIFUL LIFE",
I wondered was it direct for me,
This friend read it again and again,
So that it can have its true impact on me,
I considered myself obstinate,
But this voice went direct to change my option -I,
For while i thought,
I must not listen this voice,
The friend standing on this chariot,
Gave me a look and read this god's message again,
Body shivered,
And just with a minute i recited
God's message for me,
And took my forth decision,
To save my life,
And spread smiles with me,
Up holding my hands ,
Thanked god for sending this chariot,
With a loving friend ,
So the message,
It was exact 3:59:45am 18-jan of this year,
And had reincarnation ,
With a lovely life.

P.S:- So do i owe my life to my friend,who became GOD for me.

Same day but with new year..13th Jan 2010.

2010-01-12T09:51:00.000-08:00

FOLDED WISHES,
SURPRISES DOWN IN IT,
YUMMY CAKE,
WRAPPED GIFTS,
PEOPLE AROUND,
TIME TO MAKE A WISH,
STARS SHINING,
MOON ON THE HIGH,
SOFT MUSIC ON GUITAR,
LIGHT SOOTHING WIND,
ALL WAITING FOR YOUR WISH,
ALLURE SKY,
BIRTHDAY WISH,
AND I DROP IN,
PEEP THROUGH THE GOLDEN CURTAIN,
HANGING FOR THE GAUDY LOOK,
THERE ON THE DORM,
I COULD SEE,
IN BLACK SUIT WITH RED TIE,
READ YOUR EYES,
A TINGE OF MISSING TIME,
WITH THE GRIN FOR OTHERS,
THROUGH THE HUSTLE BUSTLE,
YOUR WAY LEADS YOU TO ME,
I AM THERE,
WEARING THE RED DRESS,
WHICH I PROMISED FOR U,,
WITH THAT SINGLE ROSE,
FOR YOU,
TO MAKE YOU SURE,
I AM STILL YOUR'S AFTER DECADES,
WE MADE THE STEPS TOGETHER,
WAS ON FALL OF TRUTH,
HERE WE ARE AGAIN.
SO DO I CLOSE MY EYES,
AND WISH ALL THE HAPPINESS ,TRANQUILITY,SERENE ALL TOGETHER FOR YOU ...
YES,
MANY MANY HAPPY RETURNS OF THE DAY WITH A PECK....

P.S:- For my fiance.

Under those hidden words !

2010-01-07T11:29:00.000-08:00

I had that in my mind,
we could sing the tale,
With the conditions ever,
Where those captured words,
Or was way to lie forth,
Have the directions blown away,
That run on the lone alley,
Reminds of the trials we did,
For that love,
Could the word impossible DIE,
For us,
To be together,
Stones had burst,
It can remind of gentle touch,
Digging of words for love,
So in delima,
To leave the relation,
Far,
Or there are some hidden words,
Yet to be motivated,
For us,
Crossed all those lines drawn for earlier one,
So u have been my light,
To all the new days,
And now if you take that support,
From my shoulders,
Will be shreded,
Please take out some words out soon
For us,
I want to you and me togther.....

I can't take your Love, love, love

2010-01-05T12:37:00.000-08:00

I'm not looking for us
And neither should you.
Absolutely gorgeous,
Then nothing I say is true.
You won't find yourself
In these guilty eyes

'Cause I love anybody who's fool enough to believe
And you're just one of many who broke their heart on me
And so I say I don't love you,
Though it kills me
It's a lie that sets you free.

Love, love, love
I can't take your
Love, love, love

And so I say I don't love you,
Though it kills me
It's a lie that sets you free.

I will wrap my body
In other women's arms.
Make love in a hurry,
Feel better than I am.
Hope you find yourself
In someone else's eyes

'Cause I love anybody who's fool enough to believe
And you're just one of many who broke their heart on me
And so I say I don't love you,
Though it kills me
It's a lie that sets you free.

Love, love, love
I can't take your
Love, love, love

And so I say I don't love you

'Cause I love anybody who's fool enough to believe (Love, love, love)
And you're just one of many who broke their heart on me (Love, love, love)
And so I say I don't love you, (Love, love, love)
Though it kills me
'Cause it's a lie

'Cause I love anybody who's fool enough to believe (Love, love, love)
And you're just one of many who broke their heart on me (Love, love, love)
And so I say I don't love you, (Love, love, love)
Though it kills me
It's a lie that sets you free.

Complete breath.

2010-01-03T13:08:00.000-08:00

Do every relation mean to be depart ,
And ,
Torn,
The sea minifying,
With every circle,
Falling down....
Stones are bunching to drown,
Water is shrudding its color behind,
The clouds drew a blank,
No more blue in it,
Does that show i cant look for you,
Inside the void,
And where does that jealous going to be,
There is your smile ,
Which i got to see from far,
It not going to remain forever with me,
It's fading..
I dont want to take it in m journey...
I am standing to see you again....

September 2006

2009-12-30T10:29:00.000-08:00

If you go back by september'2006,
It was the place,
Where we noticed our foot prints going on same way,
Bare footed crossed the miles,
Course grains of sand smashed on our clothes,
The upthrust of waves,
Sensation of chilled water,
We were on west side,
Sun was going down to his town,
The look was changing in orange,
My eyes were blinking,
Nothing was visible with out your face,
Color of water was so soothing,
Was that color of your eyes as well,
I still remind the skin of sky changing into black,
All out of sudden,
I could see stars getting brighter,
So was the time,
When i opened my eyes,
And found my head in your lap.

Everything is possible...

2009-12-27T10:15:00.000-08:00

Full length of life is never hidden,
Magic eyes can crack that,
Altitudes can never break the streamline,
Hot sand had the fine flow,
The corner of ocean was visible,
The ears could not take such sound,
The pale grass camouflaged green,
I could fly unto the horizon,
Flakes of snow so white ,Oh !
The wings of birds ...so accountable,
So achieved the desired height...

Table with love.

2009-12-25T11:29:00.000-08:00

That was part of surprise,
Standing back of the door,
With pink attire,
A beeded necklace ready,
Every void filled with scent,
Fresh drops trickling on rose petals
The music was set,
Just a moment was to come,
Cozy table,
With a cushion,
Fingers crossed,
A new hair style,
Ambiencie was perfect,
It took me to the most precious days,
Dinner was just the reason,
With candles up,
The table is all set for love....
That cuddle which i want to see again,
A time where we can relax...
Hands crossed......

Man Sleeps With Dead Wife For 5 Years

2009-12-21T11:07:00.000-08:00

They say love knows no boundaries, but this is taking it a little too far. A Vietnamese man has been sleeping next to his wifeÃ¢â‚¬â„¢s corpse for the last five years.

Le Van, a 55-year-old man from Quang Nam province,Ã‚ Vietnam, lost his wife in 2003. Because he couldnÃ¢â‚¬â„¢t go to sleep at night without hugging his beloved spouse, he slept on top of her grave for about 20 months. When he couldnÃ¢â‚¬â„¢t stand the rain and wind anymore, he decided to dig a tunnel into the grave, so he could sleep with his wife.

When the kids heard his crazy plan, they did everything they could to stop him, so Le Van had to think of another way he could cuddle up to his wife at night. In 2004 he unearthed her remains, wrapped them in pieces of paper and a clay mould and put a dummy mask on her face. The man has been sleeping next to his dead wife ever since.

Source:- Yahoo mail.

Left the rememberance ....

2009-12-19T12:03:00.000-08:00

That's meant to kiss,
Takes you down the lane,
That strong waves ,
Can rush away through,
Print on glass ware,
Can let the imbiber,
Deep into the musing,
The rhythm lets the dancer go,
In pipe,
Burned feelings,
Can peep for hope,
The rising of sun from west,
Makes the rise grow,
Those stars behind the curtain,
Keeps the capabilty to come off,
It has got all the colors,
To make the life beautiful,
The embaracing moments,
Can be captured to keep hold on,
The hillary and wavy air,
Stopped for while,
The red lip color on lips,
Makes it more attractive,
With the sparking trust,
And the new born relation.

The picture...

2009-12-16T09:44:00.000-08:00

Kid Rock:

Livin my life in a slow hell
Different girl every night at the hotel
I ain't seen the sunshine
In three damn days
Been fuelin'up on cocaine and whiskey
Wish I had a good girl to miss me
Lord I wonder if I'll ever change my ways
I put your picture away
Sat down and cried today
I can't look at you while I'm lying next to her
I put your picture away
Sat down and cried today
I can't look at you while I'm lying next to her

Sheryl Crow:

I called you last night in the hotel
Everyone knows but they won't tell
But their half-hearted smiles tell me somethin' just ain't right
I've been waitin' on you for a long time
Fuelin' up on heartaches and cheap wine
I ain't heard from you in three damn nights
I put your picture away
I wonder where you been
I can't look at you while I'm lyin' next to him
I put your picture away
I wonder where you been
I can't look at you while I'm lyin' next to him

Together:

I saw you yesterday with an old friend (Sheryl Crow)
It was the same old same how've you been? (Kid Rock)
Since you've been gone my worlds been dark and grey (Together)
You reminded me of brighter days (Kid Rock)
I hoped you were comin' home to stay (Sheryl Crow)
I was headed to church (Sheryl Crow)
I was off to drink you away (Kid Rock)

Together:

I thought about you for a long time
Can't seem to get you off my mind
I can't understand why we're living life this way
I found your picture today
I swear I'll change my ways
I just called to say I want you to come back home
I found your picture today
I swear I'll change my ways
I just called to say I want you to come back home
I just called to say I love you, come back home

2009-12-15T10:04:00.000-08:00

Here i walk,
With undoubt conclusions,
The valley up winding,
Calm and serene,
Transparent and clear views,
April was the month,
Gathered the wavy moments,
Growing grass,
That pedestrain,
Easy to cross through,
Palpating moments,
Sitting on side.........................relaxing all those worried dayz

A momentary flash :)

2009-12-07T11:46:00.000-08:00

That happiness,
With a glaze,
Out through here,
Completed a new set up of life,
Sparks airing in the air,
Defined altitude,
Drop down vanished,
No foot marks left,
Waves had new direction,
Halted on beach for a while,
Black turned into yellow,
Sun was with them,
Shadow looked clear,
High time has come,
With grace in it,
Mountains had no idea,
Stream flow played strings,
This time notion was visible,
Handcuffs were unlocked,
It was mellowed,
Violin became so musical,
Swans were on the rhythm,
Scene was so enchanting,
Baby cuddling surrounded the spark,
House was enlightened,
Created history,
So a deep sleep....Ah !!!!
Never before ..........

A perfect pair...

2009-12-04T11:24:00.000-08:00

A pair,
Tied together,
Knots tight,
Illimitable love,
Unconditional understanding,
Perfect bounding,
Restless feelings,
Grown stronger,
A perfumed link,
Pure freshness,
Beautiful rhythm,
One mirror soul,
Endless ocean of intimacy,
Glowing light in dark,
Stretched lips for smile,
No artificiality,
Simply simple awesome couple....

Another home....

2009-11-29T07:29:00.000-08:00

Beyond the limits of world,
There is resting place,
Long and sound sleep,
You are remembered everyday,
When Sun sets on,
Light twinkles,
New flower sprouts,
A fresh day says adieu,
You run every time on mind,
When new born baby tries to talk,
Knocking of door,
Shadow over happiness,
Every new story,
Being time limited,
That time we spend together,
Moment when u said good bye,
I was far ,
Couldn't even hear your last words,
That last face expression,
Palavers me ,
You left your body,
Last talk to me,
Rings down in me,
At every good and bad time,
Though i moved out of that trauma,
I still have impressions,
I join every party,
Your part always remains missing,
You left the place,
So far...
Rest in another home.....
May your soul always find peace..

P.S:- To my grand parents and my dear uncle...

Vestige

2009-11-26T11:44:00.000-08:00

Had there been a living,
That's what my perception says,
A complete blind earth,
Out of the reflections,
Fawning moments,
Evanescing seconds of life,
Insalubrious relations,
Dry lump of sand,
Spine-chilling dreams,
Foundered put up,
Bemused mind of state,
Goose bumps up,
Unverbalized expressions,
Fullof incertitudes...................

Transparency

2009-11-24T10:46:00.001-08:00

Some time i become numb...
Believe my eyes can convert that,
All the depth,
Through and through,
And the telepathy,
Would make it easier.......

Waited...

2009-11-23T06:43:00.000-08:00

Waited long ,
For the day to come,
Enriched the strength,
All through made those dreamz,
Beauty and peach,
Was all standing,
Fingers crossed,
Just on the peak of mountain,
The rushing air ,
Reviewed my mind again,
Those moments to come,
And the moment went,
As if it was just a blow,
Even couldn't feel the soft flush,
Left in tears.....Again.
Just promised me to be back.....

22 Nov..

2009-11-21T11:52:00.000-08:00

That's my birthday.....
This time i guess i am out of words for this day.....

No special program going to site as usally...i guess evry one is buzy..no complaints....

Same time again...

2009-11-20T09:14:00.000-08:00

Again the time is back,
Eyes full of tears,
Long and alone roads,following the soul....
Unidentified worried on wings,
Heart full of depressions,
Lips shattered all through,
No more hopes developing,
Sad part of life advancing,
Thinking power falling down,
Don't believe the time is back,
An unending question,
Clock ticking on halt,
Misery in the lap,
Tight bounded quarrels,
Every thing in mess..........
Trash on every moment,
Colors of life locked ,
I am frozen,
Dead open eye ,
The time is back again.....with no answers in it...

Was it !

2009-11-17T09:28:00.000-08:00

Was it he, who made me to wake up whole night,
Was it he, who made to play in rain,
Was it he, who made me sing all time,
Was it he, who made me to think of all persistent days,
Was it he, who made me to come out of those gray days,
Was it he, who taught me to draw colorful lines,
Was it he, who made me strong to carry over vexations,
Was it he, who made me to show the other beautiful part of life,
Was it he, who made me conceptualize the word SYMPATHY still have wings,
Was it he, who made me to counterbalance on certain unsung things,
Was it he, who made me to smell the scent of flowers,
Was it he, who made me to see the flight of birds happily,
Was it he, who made me to walk with closed eyes,
Was it he, who made me to cherish every relation,
Was it he, who made me to took away tears far,
Was it he, who made me evidenced the true meaning of color red,
Was it he, who made me to love others and apprehend love...........

Shoping ---Online..

2009-11-15T09:30:00.000-08:00

Coffee Feodora

Top: Coffee crinkle chiffon shirt has embellished belt on empire waist. Cowl neckline. Fully lined. Concealed back zip closure.
Bottom/Trousers: Coffee banarsi jamawar cropped trousers with no embellishments. Concealed zip closure on front.
Dupatta/Veil: Coffee crinkle chiffon dupatta has sequins spray all over. Finished with piping on edges.
Just booked it for some party.....

"I am !"

2009-11-09T08:00:00.000-08:00

The time that my journey takes is long
and the way of it long.

I came out on the chariot of the first
gleam of light, and pursued my voyage
through the wilderness of worlds leaving
my track on many a star and planet.

It is the most distant course that comes
nearest to thyself, and that training is the
most intricate which leads to the utter
simplicity of a tune.

The traveler has to knock at every alien
door to come to his own, and one has to
wander through all the outer worlds to
reach the innermost shrine at the end.

My eyes strayed far and wide before I
shut them and said, "Here art thou!"

The question and the cry, "Oh, where?"
melt into tears of a thousand streams and
deluge the world with the flood of the
assurance, "I am!"

P.S:-Gitanjali,Rabinadranath Tagore.

Escapist-----I'm just a dreamer.: Million dollar picture....

2009-11-03T11:36:00.000-08:00

Escapist-----I'm just a dreamer.: Million dollar picture....

Million dollar picture....

2009-11-03T11:34:00.000-08:00

If i would ask you people to look on this picture and extract some words for it........This is awefull picture with endless significances......

                                                 Pain with a smile,
                                                 Looks unearthly,
                                                 Those boats in rain,
                                                 Looks uncertain.........
                                     But it's truth,we deny it always.......
                                     Be mortal , and handle the situation beautifully...

P.S:- OSHO the writer speaks truth.....

Pure !!!

2009-11-01T06:48:00.000-08:00

That's all fresh,
Those burden moments,
Crawling on those rough roads,
Sky up high,with flying dreams,
Bunking collage,
Whistle in the premises,
Ragging big gang,
Up on the peaks,
Is all fresh like a morning dew,
Every day with new plans building in mind,
Neat and tidy uniform,
Pure fragrance,
That high basket ball game,
Winking girls around,
That's running still on my mind,
Can't go far,
Friends party outside the gate,
Canteen rocks,
With rich music ,
New bands every now and then,
Copies torn and apart,
Every new admission,
Smart teacher ,
Register for attendance,
Black board with no chalks,
Stickers planted,
Just a breath ,
All things whorl ,
Big gang of chums,
New affairs,
Infatuations for every new girl,
Stylish guitar playing ,
New lyrics every day,
Orchid stealing,
Gifts to girl friends,
With borrow money from friends,
Make pranks,
Oh ! that's all drawing my mind,
Thinking high ,
No classes ever attended,
Fail in internals,
Fight for strangers,
Bleeding skin,
Laughing like insane,
Stealing lunches ,
Copying in exams,
Passing with I-grade,
Lollz---expression,
Smoking cigarettes,
Just for show -off,
Back bencher's,
Strikes in college,
Running out of class,
With professor in,
College tours ,
Grravel in bus,
Make fun of other's
Gosh !!! these are all pure ....
Flowing out,
Tears in eyes,and a single smile,
Dream to re-unite with all those friends...
Those were all golden days.....

Lille time..

2009-10-25T00:29:00.000-07:00

Oh thats again me with knee cap broken.I was on site on tuesday when i had a fall and broke my knee.Then in evening when it started paining went to hospital for a examination and did X-Ray.And then moved to consult doctor and it was obvious ...PLASTER.....So he did it and now i am home long from tuesday......Advised complete 10 days rest.Boss 10 days,no movement,no office,no friends....oh its really boring ,Anyways have to be home......Will be going again to Doctor on tuesday and hopefully he removes the plaster and i am free to kick..lolll

Will be writing soon !!!!

Joliieessss;-)

HAPPY TIME...

2009-10-21T08:53:00.000-07:00

It was tricking down in my eyes,
So tight were my hands,
Lights were on their way,
Happiness all together,
I got him back,
He had the same meanings
World was changing,
It was my belief ,
I will get him back,
things turned up to me
i was running through fantasy,
No more color blindness ,
Blooming air were thrashing my face,
It was no more harsh for me,
I was on the pedestal,
This time it is not blink,
Wrapped in care,
Was so muddled,
Should be long living,
It was so intensive,
I was happy but vexed,
Didn't want bubble to split,
It was just a dream,
To gather such momemt,

Where i was called PRINCESS,
So laid down ,
Not to open my eyes long,
I still have that feeling going,
I AM HAPPY.......
I GOT HIM BACK.......

THERE I COULD..................................

2009-10-16T10:54:00.000-07:00

Beneath the soil,

Deep down,

Blue colored water,

Water bubbles,

Pouring out,

The yellow sunset,

Silver lined clouds,

Had that way,

Mind planned,

Catch hold you,

Down that steady lane,

Running unto,

Breathe holding up,

Following the fantasm,

Through the mirror,

Hazel eyes,

On the bench of world,

Narrow alleys,

Looked beyond,

The enshroud identity,

Those dark and musky nights,

Intervening the path,

Still forward for you,

Gazing lights of stars,

Enlighten way,

Following those unheard steps,

Had still the hope growing,

Can find the complete world,

Just a look back,

Was quite enough,

That unnamed individuality,

But the fragrance,

Made my follow up,

Reliance was inviolable,

To endure me through and through,

That wavy, spiritual world……….

Conceptualized me your dignified manner…….

Thats the reality...

2009-10-13T12:57:00.000-07:00

Why do i try to be in dark,
Though i know,
He is not worth,
To be mine......
Why do i solace my self,
When i think of him,
He is been doing mistakes,
All through,
Drawing those limit lines......
Why do i make my self happy,
When i know,
My life is going through troubles,
When he is in my life,
Why cant i take proper decision,
Why my love,
Stops me to take myself,
Back from him
Why i am living a weird life,
And he is the only ,
Who disturbs my life,
Every day now,
It's getting hard to breathe,
When he is around,
And i cant live proper,
When he is not around,
Don't want to give my hand to him
Not that gutty to take them back,
I am so confused,
All the ways are crossed,
He is winning the race,
I am looking like a blind,
Cant even react,
If i do so,
I spoil my world,
He seems to be very cunning,
And i am still with him,
Every day i roll up,
With tears and end up day,
My sleep is far away waiting for me,
I have not taken a good decision in my life,
Choosing him ,
I am sacrificing,
I have my lonely parents,
To carry on with them,
I don't want to give,
Them tears,
Coz of me,
Thats all confusing,
I have mind which is running on,
To take the decision,
Of my on going life,
If i close my eyes,
I can see one way only,
Ending up my LIFE,
Would be proper,
To come out of all......

Deep in thought

2009-10-08T08:56:00.000-07:00

Was so lost,

Couldn't even see the colors around,

Was so lost,

Tried to find myself,

Was so lost ,

Knew the world is freezed.

Was so lost,

Walked around,didn't knew the actual way,

Was so lost,

Difficult to look for a lone star,

Was so lost,

My tears fall was unnoticeable,

Was so lost,

Just a blink , and lost in dreams,

Was so lost,

Didn't think will it be long relation,

Was so lost,

I couldn't look better for me,

Was so lost,

Calm places looked crowdy,

Was so lost,

Heard every tale,

Was so lost,

Where was end ,looked hard,

Was so lost,

I cant even see the way ahead,

Was so lost,

That it seemed nothing has end,

Was so lost,

Never knew what was i thinking,

Was so lost,

Dreams trickling down ,

Was so lost,

Lost all relations,

Lost what ever i had,

Who knew it would be,

Fake relation.................

Innovation of nature through my eyes.

2009-10-06T12:20:00.000-07:00

Did i met you before?
I was crawling on the grass,
Tasted that flowing water ,
Which passes away with mesmerizing effect,
On my knees,
I tried to search for you,
And still guessing ,
Did i met you before ?
Hopping on and in ,
The flowers scent ,
Sensation through my ears,
Touching that petals,
Smooth and shiny ,
Deep in mind,
The only thing moving around,
Did i met you before ?
Speed up for,
Jumping those hight mountains,
And the peaks which was visible,
Through those gush of clouds,
Those clouds with golden lining,
Tempting to have a close look,
Did i met you before ?
Rest over,
That wooden house,
Some what like a hut,
The chilling cold,
Freezing water,
Running wind in all directions,
Did i met you before ?
A scene of that greenery,
I could locate the wooden bridge,
Going up ,
A way to fly high,
And feel high,
Did i met you before ?
All of sudden ,
It struck ,
Birds playing and welcoming,
And as if all colors are flying,
Garbing those way,
Noticed the Rainbow,
Amid of those high peaked mountains,
Did i met you before ?
I was flying ,
Mind was observing.
Had no idea,
Of coming back,
Already made the clear way,
Wondering,wondering,wondering
Did i met you before ?

Telepathy

2009-10-02T12:12:00.000-07:00

Through the glazing eyes,
I could see the purview,
Which i felt like,
Touching it,
It's only when,
You were around with me,
The ocean turned into ,
Beautiful lake,
The waters spilled over ,
Freshness through nerves,
The blossoms out ,
Night traveled far,
Stars shining all above,
The dim light,
Beautiful scenario,
Captured our mind,
Sand around into the velvet carpet,
Those shivered hands,
Open closeness,
Bounty wind,
Moving smoothly,
The long road,
Breezing air,
Exquisite ambiances,
Word insomniac,
The crowd together invisible,
Bobbling rays,
Feels light,
Unverbalized words,
Warm understanding,
LONG -GO word,
Unidentified paths,
Just a one saying make them feel,
TOGETHERNESS

Cheesy/Miss/Fun/Eid.

2009-09-25T01:03:00.000-07:00

Last week was busy with EID ,it was great ,had fun,cooked lot of varieties and of course my favorite marinated chicken.....Hmmm guys now busy with marriage party ,it's on 17th,28,29 of this month.. Preparations going on,oh boss i am pretty buzy ,will be out of blogging , so am i sad i will miss you all badly for sure....And soon will be back with gunny bag full of some pictures and of course with some verses as well......Have to choose dresses for the party ,i am all confused.I have got six suits for 3 days ,but yet not selected..... confused,muddled,confused,muddled..........See you !!!!

JOLLIIEESSS:-)

P.S:- I am in office after break of 5 days,going on off from tomorrow till Wednesday...

"BEHIND "

2009-09-19T13:24:00.000-07:00

WHAT DOES THOSE EYES SEE,

COULD YOU CAPTURE,

OR STILL WONDERING,

ABOUT THOSE MESMERIZING RETENTIONS,

WAS THAT THIS ALLEY,

FRESHEN UP YOUR MIND,

TO THE DOWN OF,

MOMENTS WE HAD IN CATCH OF,

THOSE PARALLEL TREES,

IN AUTUMN BLOOMED ,

FRESH AND EVER SCENTED BUDDINGS,

WHICH ADDED BEAUTY TO ME,

HAS THE SEASON CHANGED,

OR IT'S THE CRUEL TIME FOR YOU,

AM I ON THE SAME ROAD,

WHICH IS THAT LONG ROAD TO CROSS,

IS THAT ISOLATED,

OR JUST YOY DON'T WANT ,

TO WALK THROUGH IT,

THAT OLD WOODEN BENCH,

MADE FOR TWO,

IS THAT BROKEN,

OR IT'S BEEN OCCUPIED,

CHANCES OR RENOVATION ARE MORE,

NOW IT'S ONLY FOR ONE,

THE BEAUTIFUL WRAPPED GIFT,

EAGER TO PASS ,

AND LOCATE IT'S DWELLING PLACE,

DOES IT KNOWS THE TRUTH,

THE HOLDER IS MISSING,

YOUR VOICE IS CHOCKED,

WHAT DOES YOUR ,

HEART MAKE IT TO FEEL,

ARE YOU OUT OF WORD,

ELSE JOINING WORDS,

IS TOUGH JOB NOW,

AM I BLANK ,

OR THE MEMORY IS FLASHED NOW,

DO MY EYES STILLREGAIN,

THAT POWER,

TO SEE

OUR INVOLVEMENT,

WHO AND WHAT ,

CAN BE THE REASON FOR IT

ARE THOSE BLIND EYES,

OR THEY ARE JUST CLOSE TO SEE IT,

DO I WANT TO ACCEPT,

OR LOOK FORWARD.

Pink or Purple.

2009-09-18T10:49:00.000-07:00

Through and through,
All way my life,
Laughing ,giggling,
Crying ,worrying,
Wanted to express,
Am i in pink or purple,
Does my life reveals,
All the beautiful dreams i had,
Where did i was caught by,
Or did i had a fall,
That shiny world,
Made others attract,
Still wanted to know,
Am i in pink or purple,
All the good relations i have,
That cheeky smile,
To welcome,
Every thing natural,
Around and surrounded,
Perfect attitude forlife,
Pursing and wrinkling,
Again made a thought to look for,
Am i in pink or purple,
Trusty and faithful,
Realizing and recognizing,
Acknowledging and accrediting,
Knowing and loving,
Enjoying and relishing,
Managing and managing,
Does that give any glimpse,
Of being fake,
I tried to make the habit of it,
But somehow looked out,
So want to note ,
Am i in pink or purple,
My laugh and smile,
Called as caring,
Sharing the troubles through,
Faded my own worrying,
Took me far from,
My living,
Never gave a thought to my life,
Though was indeed ,
A part to be given a space,
For my better life,
Was too much accompanied by others,
Could not collect my own moment of life,
Faraway and spilled away,
But not that late to hold it back,
And grab it back,
Shiniy water drops and morning sunset ,
Can be gievn a blank space,
To fill on............
Again my mind goes in the same way,
To ask and know,
For my life,

Am i in pink or purple,

Soulfulness

2009-09-16T12:40:00.000-07:00

I still palpate with the same words,
and same feelings,
I laid down in the moon light,
With closed eyes,
I could see the trustingness between us,
But was still marveling around,
Does that mean we still are far enough,
To make and show it,
To be single Soulfulness,
I was Thoughful ,
We have bond a tough knot,
Guess it was stargazing,
I never kept my feelings
Underneath,
And always tried to look after for yours,
Could find the same,
As u never spoke up,
I thought it's
All what i wanted to have,
For the complete and perfect relation,
I was trying know you better,
Your virulent nature,
Was making it tough,
You had vitiating thoughts,
Though i was out of it,
Here i knew then,
You were opposite of me,
I tried to compromise,
But it got over to SACRIFICE,
So i breath heavily,
And got more involved,
Could see the other face of life,
Because of you,
I rolled up my bed with tears,
Ever now and then,
I never believed it,
It was long time we spend,
But still find you different every time,
So where you possessive ,
And turned into aggressiveness,
So thought to take back my words for you,
I love you still,
But don't want to live with you,
Is quite confusing and muddling,
How would i know about your decission,
I want to take this up ,
And adjudicate the worthy living,
Should ,
I compromise ?
I sacrifice ?
I expect you to change ?
Or leave your prints...........

WHATS THE REALITY.

2009-09-14T10:04:00.000-07:00

I asked you ,
To show the way of veraciousness,
My eyes retrieved only,
Bunch of flowers,
I asked you,
To be faithful,
My eyes retrieved only,
Gathered hapiness,
I asked you,
To show me the basic nature,
My eyes retrieved only,
Jovial person,
I asked you,
To show me your care,
My eyes retrieved only,
The beautiful fay,
I asked you,
To show your love,
My eyes retrieved only,
The princess of tale,

I asked you,
To show me your perfect colors,
My eyes retrieved only,
The colors of rainbow only,
I asked you,
To show the hardness of your heart,
My eyes retrieved only,
The soft petals of flowers,
I asked you,
To show the reality of world around,
My eyes retrieved only,
The beautiful dreams i ever had,

I asked you,
To show me opaque way,
My eyes retrieved only,
The fantasy world,
I asked you,
To show me what actually YOU ARE,
My eyes retrieved only,
My pure soul,my mirror.......

Stilted.

2009-09-12T12:27:00.000-07:00

Lived in a town,

So simple and calm,

Drank flowing water,

Clear and lucid,

Fresh air to breathe,

Soothing and refreshing,

Played with birds,

Joyful and independent,

Bathed in lake,

Reviewing and pure,

Fall on brown soil,

Virgin and scented,

Clothed descent,

Covered and extended,

Talked innocent,

Child like and cute,

Helping hand habit,

Caring and sharing,

Lived loved,

Handling and palming,

Was i lived till i was 20 years,

I had different life ahead,

Lived in palace,

So noisy and artificial,

Drank pure water,

Mixed and tasteless,

Perfumed air to breathe,

Hitching and choked,

Played with toys,

Offending and piquing,

Equipped washroom to use,

Conditional and insalubrious,

Fall on carpet,

Used and victimized,

Clothed heavily and costly,

Vulgarity and disquieting,

Talked mature,

Discussions and bad words,

State-of -art living style

Introvert nature and cunning,

Lived fascinating,

Suffocating and conking,

Was i lived after my 20,

In a so called crazy living.....................

Butterfly wings....

2009-09-10T12:24:00.000-07:00

I asked for it,
But you ever denied,
I could have carried myself,
But you never gave me excess,
I was sure,
To make my beautiful way,
You grabed me in your hand,
I had that option ;to feel it right,
My wings were ready to accept it,
I made my mind,
To throw away,
That old life,
Which only sucks ,
I wanted it that way,
I wanted more care,
Which haunted me ,
My life was dragging me ,
I wanted to hold it back,
You were always cruel to me,
I never had mind,
That you planned it,
You can see me crying,
And oh !
You love it,
I had a full faith on me,
I can run away,
And see my living going on,
You always wanted options for life,
So you did same for me,
I wanted to live further,
But with no force,
All i want is LOVE,FREEDOM,CARE....

Either let me FLY or
Let us LIVE........................

Marry Me

2009-09-08T11:54:00.000-07:00

Of course she will be surprised in any case, if she doesnt expect the proposal. But this guy has done everything right.

He bought a beautiful bouquet; an expensive and beautiful engagement ring,
he invited his friends with posters "Marry me" and went to meet his girlfriend at the airport.

Ring.

2009-09-07T10:38:00.000-07:00

Had a first date,
Friskiness,
I tried to express,
I had lot to tell,
Certain things throwing together,
Dreams had no ends,
I had the feeling ,
Which i cant put down,
Words were not decent,
I was getting feeble,
Even was perspiring,
I tried lot of ways,
I'm not able to portrait the feelings,
Didn't want to let the time go,
There were things to speak,
But i was numb,
Seizing with teeth my nails,
I wish i could tell you all,
This was what i had in dreams,
I wish i had you before,
No doubt ,
This is start as well,
Oh ! the ring ceremony,
He pecked on my forehead,
I was wondering,
And in seconds,
Took a word from me,
To say,
That's beautiful,
In turn i heard something back,
No the ring is not beautiful you made it so,
That moment was cherished,
It was 27 Feb'2008............................

Miss you !!!

2009-09-04T10:30:00.000-07:00

Ooo !!! that's me again,
With words fill of overlooking,
I could kept watching for you,
Knew you were not there,
But still kept looking on.

Gazing through and through,
Upright there to look on sky,
Ever tried to know,
Just to watch you ,
Tried to define you in my eyes.

That velvety direction ,
Farseeing and lonesome way ,
Tears stream on ,
It was all downcast,
Closed my eyes for a while.

Flowing water with swans,
It was visible but i couldn't make it,
Far lights trying to glow,
But i didn't wanted to give it a path,
All because some thing was missing.

And i accord,
I wanted to suggest your name,
My lips were trembling,
And heart was throbbing,
Just to say ,

Oh ! I MISS YOU.......

The only one.

2009-09-02T02:31:00.000-07:00

I had habitat of grass,
So the ambiance was like,
I tried to be firm,
With harsh sun rays,
My body was made for it,
Rough and course,
All through,
No buddings ,yields,flowers,
But i was calm inner ,
Never gave a look to be like,
Gave company to others as well,
Though i was red in green.
Too soft to be indulged,
With fleshy petals,
And water shining ,

I never wanted be apart or to be differentiated,
Just because i have other color of body .........

Unique tress

2009-09-01T07:14:00.000-07:00

How about these tress, i am so confused and curious to know more about them.

I was indisposed ,so after two days checked some mails, while surfing through long list of mails,i checked this one and i was amazed to see these trees,tree no 3 looks like a hindu lord,oh i blew out of the water to see such kind.The mail had no additional information about them.Now you people can make about other trees,who do they resemble or how do they look like......

Had a refrehing morning ..

2009-08-31T08:24:00.000-07:00

Early in the morning rushed up for welcoming ADB team in "The Lalit Grand Palace"...It was so refreshing,cold breeze,greenery,fresh air.

The only 5* hotel in Srinagar,formerly the palace residence of the Maharajas, is ringed by the majestic Himalayan ranges and overlooks the picturesque Dal Lake. Originally built in 1910, this twin storey heritage property with its sprawling lawns has been carefully restored to its former glory and is today a full facility destination.

The Lalit Grand Palace Srinagar is a property of Bharat hotels

The Lalit Grand Palace Srinagar, overlooks the famous dal lake. The 125 room 'heritage' property 15 kms from the airport, is located adjacent to the Governor's House and just minutes from the city's other historic attractions like Shankaracharya Temple, Nishat and Shalimar Bagh, Chashmashahi, Pari Mahal.

There are 45 palace suites, 60 palace rooms, 10 cottages, two restaurants and a bar, conference and meeting rooms. Leisure facilities include an indoor heated swimming pool, a well equipped health club with gym, sauna, steam, whirlpool and massage; a beauty parlour and barber shop and a shopping arcade, along with tennis courts, a putting green, spacious walking lawns with nearby surroundings ideal for cycling, trekking, fishing and photography. Guests also have access to two adjoining international standard golf courses a 9-hole golf course and an 18-hole course.

Wedding Passbook

2009-08-28T01:53:00.000-07:00

Monica married Nick this day. At the end of the wedding party, Monica's mother gave her a newly opened bank saving passbook with Rs.1000 deposit amount.

Mother: 'Monica, take this passbook. Keep it as a record of your marriage life. When there's something happy and memorable happened in your new life, put some money in. Write down what it's about next to the line. The more memorable the event is, the more money you can put in. I've done the first one for you today. Do the others with Nick.

When you look back after years, you can know how much happiness you've had.'

Monica shared this with Nick when getting home. They both thought it was a great idea and were anxious to know when the second deposit can be made. This was what they did after certain time:

* 7 Feb: Rs.100, first birthday celebration for Nick after marriage
* 1 Mar: Rs.300, salary raise for Monica
* 20 Mar: Rs.200, vacation trip to Bali
* 15 Apr: Rs.2000, Monica got pregnant
* 1 Jun: Rs.1000, Nick got promoted
* ..... And so on...

However, after years, they started fighting and arguing for trivial things. They didn't talk much. They regretted that they had married the nastiest people in the world.... No more love....Kind of typical nowadays, huh?

One day Monica talked to her Mother: 'Mom, we can't stand it anymore. We agree to divorce. I can't imagine how I decided to marry this guy!!!"

Mother: 'Sure, girl, that's no big deal. Just do whatever you want if you really can't stand it. But before that, do one thing first.

Remember the saving passbook I gave you on your wedding day? Take out all money and spend it first. You shouldn't keep any record of such a poor marriage.'

Monica thought it was true. So she went to the bank, waiting at the queue and planning to cancel the account. While she was waiting, she took a look at the passbook record. She looked, and looked, and looked. Then the memory of all the previous joy and happiness just came up her mind. Her eyes were then filled with tears. She left and went home.

When she was home, she handed the passbook to Nick, asked him to spend the money before getting divorce.

The next day, Nick gave the passbook back to Monica. She found a new deposit of Rs.5000. And a line next to the record: 'This is the day I notice how much I've loved you thru out all these years. How much happiness you've brought me.'

They hugged and cried, putting the passbook back to the safe. Do you know how much money they had saved when they retired? I did not ask. I believe the money did not matter any more after they had gone thru all the good years in their life.

"When you fall in any way, don't see the place where you fell instead see the place from where you slipped. Life is about correcting mistakes."

I accept !!!

2009-08-26T11:44:00.000-07:00

I consent publicly,

Those Fraudulent affection,

My switched behavior ,

Concealment between us,

Verities of our relation,

Nearness,

That show off,

Long trips,

Freaking out ,

Deep power of telepathy,

Those nights out,

Long drives,

Same feeling type,

Planned outings,

Tales,

Changes cultivated,

Compromises,

Forfeiture,

Essences of unitedly,

Corroborate all along,

Smiles and laughs,

Long walks all alone,

Whispering in ears,

Kisses ,

Rainy seasons,

Tears tricking down,

Phone calls,

Forethought for every concern thing,

Head on shoulder ,

Yachting together,

All those persistent time......Was all Fake between us,

I never had happy relation,

Pretending made it so,

I wanted to take steps back,

Long back,

Your

Dictation,

Domination,

Autocratic behavior,

Oppressive,

Tyrannical way,

Your way of living,

Forced on me,

Never bothered about my problems,

Never listen to me,

Never cared for me,

And this is all truth ............

"I NOW ABNEGATE BEING WITH YOU "

Distances ,

2009-08-24T11:15:00.000-07:00

Those early morning rays,
Bed tea,
Song in modulation,
Whooshing sound by tree leaves,
Waves and tides,
Coconut tree at the bank,
Small boat roaring across,
Wooden bridge,
Hanging tress,
Park in front of window,
Road side bench,
Those sandy beeches,
Road aside those kids,
Far away that old couple ,hand in hand,
Bike ride,
On lonely road,
Summer rain,
One single blanket,
Missing candle night dinner,
Dark night,
Morning breeze.....

Makes me to remember the far away distance between

Trials and chances ...

2009-08-23T03:40:00.000-07:00

Let me see the possibilty of our intimacy:-

1) I tucked the first petal ----------------Do i knock you when you are alone-----------NAH
2) Then the second petal in my hand------------Am i there in your heart as a friend----NAH.
3) Hmmm...now the third petal-----------------Do you breath heavily ?----------------NAH.
4) Errrrrr....fourth petal ------------------------Do you look for me in crew ?-----------NAH.
5) Oh now its fifth petal------------------------Do you only think about me ?-----------NAH.
6) Sixth petal----------------------------------Do you wait for me ?--------------------NAH.
7) Seventh petal-------------------------------Do you dream about me?----------------NAH.
8) ooohh it's eighth petal-----------------------Do tears well up in your eyes for me ?---NAH.
9) Ninth petal---------------------------------Do you want your pain to kiss away ?----NAH.
10) Gosh its Tenth petal-----------Do you rool down your body and turn to steam ?----NAH.
11) Its going to over--guess eleventh petal---- Are you lonely with out me ?--------------NAH.

12) Now its the last petal ,--------oh yeah ! its twelfth petal------should i ask you after so many negatives-----let me ask you still---------------------
DO YOU LOVE ME ? Oh hmmmmm........You know....you know what.....well.....should i say.....but i guess you know it........oh yeah....i mean......you got it na........well it's like.............
1) I am never alone when you are in my mind.
2) I never took you as a friend.....................
3) I am never in stress when you are around.
4) You always in my eyes.
5) You never go out of my thoughts.
6) You are not my shadow,you are half of me.
7) I reverie.
8) I am always happy with you,for you.
9) I feel you all around me.
10) I can never sleep.
11) How can it possible to be lonely ,i have one soul of two persons.

12) So should i say it,or i must say it again "I LOVE YOU "

Unuttered Feelingz ..

2009-08-20T10:44:00.000-07:00

Traveled and roamed
to discover where do i belong to
far away could see you
that was just a shadow ,
you were in real far...infact very far.............

Should i again take the leap
to make you call back to home
my eyes, blink to see you
I'd do uncertain things
to make you mine............................................

Look for certainty
feel what do i say
touch the tears
see the depth of lies
where do you find yourself
when there on the pedestal you are,
with all fake reality

Different faces of yours
doesn't allow you to see the truth
you can get me back close to you
but your eyes are closed
your heart is strong.

Under those twinkling stars,
They make me feel your absence
no doubt how far you are,
just makes me tremble
i try not to fix your face
but still i do

Sad chores of song
i wonder how do i live my life
am i in doubts of life
it all empty
all desolated
To look forward
i am ready to crawl on knees
and take you back,
you step ahead and find me there......

Lonely way ....

2009-08-17T13:56:00.000-07:00

That orange sand,
Shows your way to heavy dunes...
That gray sky,
Sure to say you, blues are all in......
That horny way,
"Think again you are alone " is what do it express........
That smooth road with fresh tarmac,
Is that its never been foot prineted before..........
Heaps around, Life is long-winded to show you the humps of adversities.....
The diminish sunlight,
Gives you warning of red light ahead......
That shadow far away,
makes you remind of some fake relation.....
And that desert,
which want to put across that you are with out water .....
Was i always same ,
Or i had some one shoulder to shoulder............
I hardly can locate that relation,
Whose smell i cannot make now.........
That manner is hidden down in..
Trying to grimace that old memories ....
Are they washed away ! Or am i just devising my flash ......to be what i dont want Or what i can have...

Subterfuge

2009-08-15T10:51:00.000-07:00

Unable to see,
or intend to.

The crushed world,
with hard knocks.

The struggling moves,
which is difficult to turn up right.

The chaotic scenes,
makes eyes to drop down.

The hatred inbuilt,
ignorance around.

killings on raise,
squares away every good thing .

The unreasoning things,
Limits out to resolve.

The baneful voices,
Shutter the captured moments.

The Impoverishment,
never to end up.

The bloody relations,
messed and hooked up.

The pretending company,
easy to deceive

Indifference of creed,
vanished the purity indeed.

Am i called purblind,
or this is just my act.

What'z this now !

2009-08-12T10:17:00.000-07:00

Today's WHAT"Z THIS GAME :-)

"A giant Bitch is garbing lot of kids with her giant hands ,:- and i am afraid of it"

Game....

2009-08-11T11:22:00.000-07:00

A game called WHAT'S THIZ !!!
If i say its transit mixer ,thats perfectly right ...but for now we are playing a game ,here,CALLED what else this picture seems to us rather than from its original view ,Comment and make it through......WHATS THIZ...WHATS THIZ..
For me it'z :-
"A mother who is expecting baby and is going to deliver it soon .....so people are around her to hold the baby"

Fantasy or what !!!!!!!!

2009-08-08T12:57:00.000-07:00

Portray in the mind,
Was a big world,
With edifices surrounding it,
On the top of it,
Was me,
Wearing that pink dress,
Looking through ,
I could see azure........and hush clouds....
Surrounding me,
With lot of unheard things,
Following each other,
It was me only,
And it was cascading on me,
I couldn't cogitate on it,
Wanted to be it like same,
No wake up alarm,
I wanted to lay on hammock,
It was so nonchalant,
All purity,
Love making its all ways,
So serene and stoic,
Leaving nerve-racking border far away,
Out of all ,may be that was Serendipity for me,
Was that me or some wraith,
I made out,
Something was good was in the offing,
And i was on the anvil,
Mad sure to give it wings,
yeah i was in the castle of air,
Made sure that my eyes wont open........
Wont open,
let me be in my dreams.........

Those black and white pictures.....

2009-08-07T09:44:00.000-07:00

Down the street,
I was pondering ,
Do i need to live any more,
Am i still looking to live forward,
Does those dark shades of my life,
Been occupied,
Or am i blurred , my life is fading away,
My hands are cuffed,
My eyes have lied,
Every thing in blue,
Inspirations of life were just impersonation,
I blinked ,with what i had !!!!!
So i realized ,
I was living an obtuse life,
Shades over headed me,
No other way to break down this continuity of my living,
Y can't i just make that,
I am going no where ,with no image of what it can be,
Dark pots in and all.....
No ways viable,with out closing with what i have garbed in....
Was i sure about it,
Or im afraid of losing some thing,
Where does my values breath in,
Oh !!!!!!
Its blew over,Its blew over........

I can't see that happy going ,merry go world,
I had beautiful mind to view it,
But that was just for when i was 16,
Back in my colorful world,red,green,yellow.....
Hopping and jumping......

I had a picture in my mind,
These flying birds,
Does they do the same ! AS I DID...

Breath with no meanings,
Live with no feelings,
Love with no sensations,
Life with no flavors,
Dream with no spirits,
Move with no values,
See with no colors,
All with no ambitions............

All blurred , black,dark life ...i am sustaining .....

P.S*:- I pasted this post from my other blog,i wanted to write it here but by mistake did it there.....