Escapist-----I'm just a dreamer.

I need some sunrays , I hate over shadows , I need some harmony , I hate over burden , I need some colours , I hate blindness, I need some love , I hate being alone , I need some travel , I hate spoiled brats , I need some oxygen , I hate suffocating , I need some life , I hate hatred....

I am so firm and rigid about it, I am so sure about it , I want to make my life beautiful, I want to be same, what I was 7yrs back .. I want my life back , I deserve it to full.... I think that's Wat is destined, I am happy to accept it, It may take some time but I will be used then..... You don't deserve me and my son.... That's how we will live happily.

So is this page blank and neat, Just a wip and it will be full, Just a hope and there will be happiness, Just a promise and it will be alive, Just a word and it will be fullest, Just a smile and it will be lively, Just a hold and it will be new start, Just a hug and it will be complete......

My Allah ,don't me let feel lost ... I beg and beg u ... Give my life back.. My shoulders are not enough strong , I can't this burden , I have failed in my life, I want it back alone n all alone, I don't want to ponder any other thing in my life, Just me and my lonely life, Leave me alone and let me live...... My tears have shredded heavily , I have no more energy to cry and hide my tears, I have lives this life now for six years by now , I can't take it more... Allah plz understand I am not with a that person which I used to b, It seems he was some one else not he, Trust me god ! I want to find happiness ! Either with YOU or ALONE....... I beg u and beg you.

Do we really want to go around ,have those lillyies around , No and not ..... Y shall we not stop to flaunt , I can't live a suffocated life, Leave me, Or live with me for u n my sake..... I hate to live to show others.

A woman compromises all her dreams, Her carrier, Her wishes , Her happiness, Her smile, Her life , Her health Her all other relations , Her ego, Her attitude , Her life style, Her behaviour , Her body , After getting married,she is no more considered a person with life ,just a person who is living just for the name sake....

I don't want this day to forget, Where and when I came to know the reality , A devil I believe so, A person who makes fake relation , A selfish person, A person who gets into influence of others , A person who thinks Wat he do is correct, A person who wants me to leave all other relations, A person who can never talk polite, A person who is no more my husband but a father to my son....