Escapist-----I'm just a dreamer.

A way to move, Lille smooth... little rough Scary road....an angle on other side, Giggle sound .......the tears sprinkling down, Pink dress and a bow........so is the white dress all over, Oh that green grass and the dew drops.......the barren of insight, Sunset in the open sky.............hisssshh and the dark way, Beautiful life.......unworthy materialistic , A friend all through..........no one to listen the tale. Black and white...but true.

At the turn, On the whole, Was that ground, With blue sky , Hazel eyes to look on , That red fruit hanging on bunches, Chirping of those beautiful birds, So the scene was nostalgic, The running boat with whirling sound, White dressed fairy , Hush of water , Invisible move, Everything in dark.

Those different perceptions, Of life, Which ever remained In my mind, Roller coaster to play, Stroller to walk in, And see the colored world, While i was 3, Shakes to drink, Skaters in my feet, Fairy tales, A lovely pink bed, When I was 10, Woooo attires, Attitude with perfect confidence, Days and nights freaking out, When i was 15, Bridge of dreams, So the would be in revering, White long dress, Pearl and diamonds, It was when i was 20, And now the life is quite different, Dreams and reality, Holds two different things, You are in other mode of life, Where you look for yourself, In others personality, And finally after long fight, With yourself, You accept the life, Leaving behind those dreams...........

I remember , Those moments, Flying on the way, With the umbrella hanging on, Enjoying those sprinkles of rain drops. I remember , Those moments, Jumping on through, With fingers in mom's hand, Follow that beautiful butterfly. I remember , Those moments, Dressed up in uniform, Waiting for the school bus, That last seat,to be the boss. I remember , Those moments, When waking up at 8am, Would start the sundae show, Playing cricket,breaking glasses. I remember , Those moments, Out of the class, With the naughty expression, To say i did nothing. I remember , Those moments, I was out from school, To pop in college, Gang of friends to say hurry, But a say MISS for the school. I remember , Those moments, Ragging would start, Our attitude, Bunking the classes, Throwing impressions, Playing truth and dear, Dreaming for the career to be high. I remember , Those moments, Dropping into profession colleges, Thinking world on tips, To be on cloud nine, Boy friend girlfrie...

Had the Castle of my dream, On the shores , With a piece of island, The silver lining, Looked man made,so near.. Howling knife and spoon, All gold and diamond, Fresh oranges,mangoes,grapes, With big orchards, Maidens for combing hair, Pottery Mark Query, Velvet crimson and purple robes, And the colobium sindonis gown, Rolls-Royce car i owned, Dutch Royal horse was white, That smile was tough, Not inborn, Stiled and contrived, Had the glower, Incomplete and disquieting,

So arduous, So blind , So clumsy So discomfit, So discombobulated, So embarrassing So flurry, So graveling, So haunted, So invaginate, So jumbled, So knocked down, So lamentable, So misdirected, So infamous, So pathetic, So peeved, So ragging, So spiflicating, So tenuous, So turned down, So tattered, So unappealing, So vile, So worried......

I was on the bright window, No black clouds, And the voice was cheerful, Could not make the other way stand, I was in my happy world, Rejoicing every second, And rejoicing life, Lamentable was the other side, So didn't not felt a glimpse of it, I was in life's fantasy, Made me explain his mystery, I rebounded back to the sad tale, But was harsh and edgy , Was distressed of my way, And in a while the situation, Went out of my mind, Life is a a Masterpiece and journey for me, Though got a time again, To pound into the same old sad tale, And now was hurt strong, Didn't chipped in my hand, I was in life's harmony, And then again made it more afflictive, When i footed down, To realize the part, I was late , I invoke APOLOGIZE, "I AM SORRY "

  So dense to get into, Even not that vivid, to loop , Was so convincing, Could be life long words, An eradicate throwing, Palpating times, To appreciate the moments. Strong support around the dunes, So stoical like a new born baby, Yelling and throbbing stones, Something impeded with, Secure message , With folded papers, Water in force, Holding those unnamed seconds, For to be safe , And so growing tall meadows, Erosion been on tips, Can be massive, O so fragile it has to be.......

I was in his arms, Nothing to look for mre, We were just into each other, Nothing more to survive, He hold me tight, So do i close my eyes, No boundaries over to think, Had the ultimate springing, Had the strong shoulder, To put on, No thought whirling, The sun was shining, Or must be the stars, Can it be moon light, Coz i  was no more me....

Those few steps, Ahead, So made the miles difference, Those few steps, Too close to comfort, Those few steps, So the house is built again , Those few steps, And the ashes were found, Those few steps, Waves looked rejoining, Those few steps, Area was flooded, Those few steps, The long life..

Dark was the night, Midnight of 17 jan 2010, Lights were closed back time, No view was clear, Mind was blocked, Had only one options to surveil, Consummate darkness for my life, Guess that was to self-annihilation, So was i clunged to the desired option, No body had the thought to disturb my level of choosing it, Was so stubborn to attempt it, Just a move of one sec, And my soul would been flying, And with a flash of light i heard those heavy sounds, Drifting towards me, A golden CHARIOT, I was stunned for the time, And when i saw it , It was my friend in it with a message from god, Guess, Some second option upholding in his hands, And read it loud "MY CHILD YOU HAVE A BEAUTIFUL LIFE", I wondered was it direct for me, This friend read it again and again, So that it can have its true impact on me, I considered myself obstinate, But this voice went direct to change my option -I, For while i thought, I must not listen this voice, The friend standin...

A pair, Tied together, Knots tight, Illimitable love, Unconditional understanding, Perfect bounding, Restless feelings, Grown stronger, A perfumed link, Pure freshness, Beautiful rhythm, One mirror soul, Endless ocean of intimacy, Glowing light in dark, Stretched lips for smile, No artificiality, Simply simple awesome couple....

Had there been a living, That's what my perception says, A complete blind earth, Out of the reflections, Fawning moments, Evanescing seconds of life, Insalubrious relations, Dry lump of sand, Spine-chilling dreams, Foundered put up, Bemused mind of state, Goose bumps up, Unverbalized expressions, Fullof incertitudes...................

Again the time is back, Eyes full of tears, Long and alone roads,following the soul.... Unidentified worried on wings, Heart full of depressions, Lips shattered all through, No more hopes developing, Sad part of life advancing, Thinking power falling down, Don't believe the time is back, An unending question, Clock ticking on halt, Misery in the lap, Tight bounded quarrels, Every thing in mess.......... Trash on every moment, Colors of life locked , I am frozen, Dead open eye , The time is back again.....with no answers in it...

Beneath the soil, Deep down, Blue colored water, Water bubbles, Pouring out, The yellow sunset, Silver lined clouds, Had that way, Mind planned, Catch hold you, Down that steady lane, Running unto, Breathe holding up, Following the fantasm, Through the mirror, Hazel eyes, On the bench of world, Narrow alleys, Looked beyond, The enshroud identity, Those dark and musky nights, Intervening the path, Still forward for you, Gazing lights of stars, Enlighten way, Following those unheard steps, Had still the hope growing, Can find the complete world, Just a look back, Was quite enough, That unnamed individuality, But the fragrance, Made my follow up, Reliance was inviolable, To endure me through and through, That wavy, spiritual world………. Conceptualized me your dignified manner…….

Why do i try to be in dark, Though i know, He is not worth, To be mine...... Why do i solace my self, When i think of him, He is been doing mistakes, All through, Drawing those limit lines...... Why do i make my self happy, When i know, My life is going through troubles, When he is in my life, Why cant i take proper decision, Why my love, Stops me to take myself, Back from him Why i am living a weird life, And he is the only , Who disturbs my life, Every day now, It's getting hard to breathe, When he is around, And i cant live proper, When he is not around, Don't want to give my hand to him Not that gutty to take them back, I am so confused, All the ways are crossed, He is winning the race, I am looking like a blind, Cant even react, If i do so, I spoil my world, He seems to be very cunning, And i am still with him, Every day i roll up, With tears and end up day, My sleep is far away waiting for me, I have not taken a good decision in my l...