Thats the reality...

Why do i try to be in dark,
Though i know,
He is not worth,
To be mine......
Why do i solace my self,
When i think of him,
He is been doing mistakes,
All through,
Drawing those limit lines......
Why do i make my self happy,
When i know,
My life is going through troubles,
When he is in my life,
Why cant i take proper decision,
Why my love,
Stops me to take myself,
Back from him
Why i am living a weird life,
And he is the only ,
Who disturbs my life,
Every day now,
It's getting hard to breathe,
When he is around,
And i cant live proper,
When he is not around,
Don't want to give my hand to him
Not that gutty to take them back,
I am so confused,
All the ways are crossed,
He is winning the race,
I am looking like a blind,
Cant even react,
If i do so,
I spoil my world,
He seems to be very cunning,
And i am still with him,
Every day i roll up,
With tears and end up day,
My sleep is far away waiting for me,
I have not taken a good decision in my life,
Choosing him ,
I am sacrificing,
I have my lonely parents,
To carry on with them,
I don't want to give,
Them tears,
Coz of me,
Thats all confusing,
I have mind which is running on,
To take the decision,
Of my on going life,
If i close my eyes,
I can see one way only,
Ending up my LIFE,
Would be proper,
To come out of all......