Escapist-----I'm just a dreamer.

At the turn, On the whole, Was that ground, With blue sky , Hazel eyes to look on , That red fruit hanging on bunches, Chirping of those beautiful birds, So the scene was nostalgic, The running boat with whirling sound, White dressed fairy , Hush of water , Invisible move, Everything in dark.

That how life treats, Ground full of kids , So in a moment, It turns in barn , You laugh out of range, So in a moment, You just smile no more laughs, A late night coffee in bed, So in a moment, You become chef yourself, Your wardrobe full of attires, So in a moment, No more parties to put them on, Snowy flakes and chilled winter, So in a moment, You are in a desert, Nap in your mothers lap, So in a moment, You look for the sleep at-least, A perfect daughter, So in a moment In-law word gets add, Free and careless, So in a moment, Your world becomes different, Throwing tantrum , So in a moment, You get the one who throws tantrum on you , And you become the mother, So in a moment, Life makes its roll on and down.

Those different perceptions, Of life, Which ever remained In my mind, Roller coaster to play, Stroller to walk in, And see the colored world, While i was 3, Shakes to drink, Skaters in my feet, Fairy tales, A lovely pink bed, When I was 10, Woooo attires, Attitude with perfect confidence, Days and nights freaking out, When i was 15, Bridge of dreams, So the would be in revering, White long dress, Pearl and diamonds, It was when i was 20, And now the life is quite different, Dreams and reality, Holds two different things, You are in other mode of life, Where you look for yourself, In others personality, And finally after long fight, With yourself, You accept the life, Leaving behind those dreams...........

It belongs to me, So i can carry with it, I can give to any one, I like, No one to order , Can play with it, Else can use it, No one to question, I wonder how would it be, If it wont be mine, I cannot beseech, When i had it in loadz, I hope no one takes it away from me, My freedom,my wishes,my dreams,my money.........

I  Believe...     That  just because two people argue,     It  doesn't mean they don't love each other.   And  just because they don't argue,   It doesn't mean they  do love each other.

Do i feel it, Under the tips of my fingers , Left me undue, And undone, Scattered in our shadows, Lame stories, Unheard things revolving around, People around, Still the emptiness , Has taken its place, Wasn't able to judge, Did i i left it, Or i went far away, So i could recollect some words , To say, I MISS U ALL..

I remember the the bare footed steps, Sand whirling into, The whooping sound of the tides, Attracting to join in , And get wet, The farari rushing , To the direction of the falling rain, Raining all along , Made it more beautiful and sceneric, The saving jacket was of orange color, It was more fun to put that on, Every drop of water so refreshing, The partner along and holding hands, Made it perfect sea ride....

Hiya ! A smell of new house arousing with in me and so had a look of my new home at Saudi Arabia.Landed yesterday after refreshing move to Malaysia,it was quite cool affected trip.Enjoyed lankawi beaches,lagoon in kaulalumpur.....and more of it. Will upload few pictures soon, haven't unpacked things feel so hot here....cant compare two different places ,yes my Srinagar and now Saudi Arabia...my room is so messed up,didn't made it,i feel so lazy and occupied with temperature....i need to make move and do some work.... Miss u all....... Jollieesss;)

Oopppsss.......was i so buzy in my marriage and then my hubby's cousin marriage ,today i gotta a little time to spent on my blog.... Marriage was all awesome,everything went good and was in tune.Weather remained sunny and yes of course situation in Kashmir was settled down for those 3 days (Fingers crossed).Now i am back to my home for some days and then back to in-laws place for some 10days.And then and then and then ....HONEYMOON in Malaysia .We are leaving on 15th July for Malaysia and then to Kingdom Saudi Arabia .Will update soon with marriage pictures. Love all.... Tk cr.

June 20 My wedding date.... Boss just few days left for my wedding now.I am getting out of block , i hardly get some time to fiddle through net and grab my laptop..Have so many things to pack, to arrange, to buy ...oh..oh ....it can go on....Now the things are on earth,anvil word had to be replaced by DONE..... I am happy,confused,sad ,excited and even worried..its been raining here  since few weeks and i hope weather will be hot on my wedding...i need your strong wishes and prayers.... I will be out of blog for of months now...i guess will start writing back when i will be in Saudi after marriage.Most probably in the month of August 2010.Wish me luck ...... Will miss u all...... P.S:- http://naziawedsowais.webs.com/         This is my invitation to all my blogger friends..

I remember , Those moments, Flying on the way, With the umbrella hanging on, Enjoying those sprinkles of rain drops. I remember , Those moments, Jumping on through, With fingers in mom's hand, Follow that beautiful butterfly. I remember , Those moments, Dressed up in uniform, Waiting for the school bus, That last seat,to be the boss. I remember , Those moments, When waking up at 8am, Would start the sundae show, Playing cricket,breaking glasses. I remember , Those moments, Out of the class, With the naughty expression, To say i did nothing. I remember , Those moments, I was out from school, To pop in college, Gang of friends to say hurry, But a say MISS for the school. I remember , Those moments, Ragging would start, Our attitude, Bunking the classes, Throwing impressions, Playing truth and dear, Dreaming for the career to be high. I remember , Those moments, Dropping into profession colleges, Thinking world on tips, To be on cloud nine, Boy friend girlfrie...

And here i move and say, Hello hello hello.... With beats up, And just few words to utter, No more revering, Pure veins of blood, No white stains all through, Ambience's doesn't make any effect now, Its all out and just to say.. You are being loved ...

What i see , Is wings of HOPE.....

Out to Delhi,its too hot here.... Wish me luck.....

Say you're sorry, that face of an angel Comes out just when you need it to As I paced back and forth all this time Cause I honestly believed in you Holding on, the days drag on Stupid girl, I should have known I should have known I'm not a princess, this ain't a fairy tale I'm not the one you'll sweep off her feet Lead her up the stairwell This ain't Hollywood, this is a small town I was a dreamer before you went and let me down Now it's too late for you and your white horse, to come around Baby I was naive, got lost in your eyes And never really had a chance I had so many dreams about you and me Happy endings, now I know I'm not a princess, this ain't a fairy tale I'm not the one you'll sweep off her feet Lead her up the stairwell This ain't Hollywood, this is a small town I was a dreamer before you went and let me down Now it's too late for you and your white horse, to come around And there you are...

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house That don't bother me I can take a few tears now and then and just let ?em out I'm not afraid to cry every once in a while even though Goin' on with you gone still upsets me There are days every now and again I pretend I'm okay But that's not what gets me What hurts the most Was being so close And havin' so much to say And watchin' you walk away And never knowin' What could've been And not seein' that lovin' you Is what I was tryin' to do It's hard to deal with the pain of losin' you everywhere I go But I'm doin' it It's hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I'm alone Still harder gettin' up, gettin' dressed, livin' with this regret But I know if I could do it over I would trade, give away all the words that I saved in my heart That I left unspoken What hurts the most Is being so close And havin' so muc...

Thats holds good for me, Stretching a graph of depression, Verses the line of happiness, Up...Down , Up...Down ,Up...Down , Blue merging down, Grey making its new shine, Those tiny hair cracks getting involved, Rust recrudesce its area, Slipping off was accompanied, Voids were see through now, Catchment area increasing with null identity, Corners were filleting,  Migrants could be seen capturing the new town, No more originality, Hollow depths  , Up...Down , Up...Down ,Up...Down ,

 My eyes are closed, Could see the pampering world, And calm was the other side, Quiet voice ranging into the,  Solacing ,serene ambiance, Heart rendering gave it other link, Birds were migrating, Plants were getting more greener, Was i confused, To get two different looks, Or the things were same, Polluted and other was clear, I could go beyond my perception, And come up with the new thinking, Was that dark time, Or i am going on that path, Was it noon time, Else i thought serene, Could recollect the chapter, It was the fighting people, Who gave me impact , To walk through such light, And get involved in duplicay, HELP is the last option left for me.

Had the Castle of my dream, On the shores , With a piece of island, The silver lining, Looked man made,so near.. Howling knife and spoon, All gold and diamond, Fresh oranges,mangoes,grapes, With big orchards, Maidens for combing hair, Pottery Mark Query, Velvet crimson and purple robes, And the colobium sindonis gown, Rolls-Royce car i owned, Dutch Royal horse was white, That smile was tough, Not inborn, Stiled and contrived, Had the glower, Incomplete and disquieting,

Behind those curtains, Around that gushy days, With colorblind, Camouflage time, Rooting forests, Halted bonds,  Those old and rusted wires, Play the same solo music, Makes me feel you are still here.......   

The sprawling Asia's biggest tulip garden in Jammu and Kashmir’s summer capital Srinagar holds thousands of flowers impart a mesmerising ambience to this 90-acre tourist attraction in the Valley. Nearly 1.3 million tulip bulbs comprising 70 varieties of various colours have been grown in the garden,the vast tulip garden overlooking the Dal Lake in the city. Located close to the famous Mughal gardens of Chashma Shahi, Nishat and Shalimar, the Kashmir tulip garden is seen as a milestone in making holidays memorable for thousands of domestic and foreign tourists who come to the Valley each year. For better looks,clearity of pictures follow other blog of mine    http://escapist-delineations.blogspot.com/2010/04/tulip-garden-srinagar-indira-gandhi.html P.S:- Pictures taken by Nokia 5800 on Friday,03 April 2010.

That was the time, I got up from my relaxing chair, Just trying to peep out on my windows, To feel the calm breath , With those tiny bluish eyes, I wonder to see the working world, There was the cat sitting on the bench, Behind the road and those bushy trees, Few miles away was that gardener, Those purple tulips looked serene, So was the road vendor busy with his business, He had those shiny tomatoes, With an expression of selling it off, And the child caught me up, His mother holding his hand, Gearing him up for school, In the middle of road, That skinny couple on with themselves, Looked starting the flowing day, Of love,care, togetherness, That fat man, Rolling on with the count of money, With the fraction of seconds, Moved that  Porsche 911 Carrera S, It was just to disturb that calm ambiance, Here i was on my wooden window with those crystal clear window panes, Outside look gave me a day to my one more day.....

On the way to my life, Down those persistent days, Under serene shadow, Feel the pictorial care, On the way to my life, Down those persistent days, The first touch of finger, And the open hearted smile on lips, On the way to my life, Down those persistent days, Tripping on the nano tear, Bewildered and  affrighted expression, On the way to my life, Down those persistent days, Dada and mum uttering , Flow less ambiance of happiness, On the way to my life, Down those persistent days, That crawl on the day, All those new and exciting expectations of life start, On the way to my life, Down those persistent days, Tantrum on on pity things, Well handled with smile, On the way to my life, Down those persistent days, All those endless moments, Captured and saved in my life ever... Thats My "MOTHER"

So arduous, So blind , So clumsy So discomfit, So discombobulated, So embarrassing So flurry, So graveling, So haunted, So invaginate, So jumbled, So knocked down, So lamentable, So misdirected, So infamous, So pathetic, So peeved, So ragging, So spiflicating, So tenuous, So turned down, So tattered, So unappealing, So vile, So worried......

Perfect scene for the day end it  was, When the  sun was orange, And the sky  prototyped the color, With the subtlety effect by mountains, Oh that was so thoroughgoing time, The place was reverberating so soothly, Every color was so melded, Those breaches were difficult to locate, And so was water overlooking the sun's shade , Perplex of sun set colors, Just  wink of eyes, Was enough to take it along, Sitting along the sub way, Peeping through those interruptions...... That was the day when u promised to make these things happen again.

I was on the bright window, No black clouds, And the voice was cheerful, Could not make the other way stand, I was in my happy world, Rejoicing every second, And rejoicing life, Lamentable was the other side, So didn't not felt a glimpse of it, I was in life's fantasy, Made me explain his mystery, I rebounded back to the sad tale, But was harsh and edgy , Was distressed of my way, And in a while the situation, Went out of my mind, Life is a a Masterpiece and journey for me, Though got a time again, To pound into the same old sad tale, And now was hurt strong, Didn't chipped in my hand, I was in life's harmony, And then again made it more afflictive, When i footed down, To realize the part, I was late , I invoke APOLOGIZE, "I AM SORRY "

On the other row of my class, Was my first love, When i was in first standard, He has that hazel color eyes, With curly hair, And that fair complexion, We would gaze each other, All through the crowded class, With that fresh smile, To pass on, Lunch together, With the roasted sandwich, Which was his favorite, Plan to implement to get a common bench, Oh ! that first wink, I still remember, Tears in eyes, When teacher shouted on one of us, Woopppsss that was so cute, Teasing of friends, Waiting in that play ground , On that selected bench, Same color of attires on school functions, Oh that box of candies and chocolates, Sharing of sweets, All that was so innocent, I still remember that fragile friendship..............................

Through and through, Amid of the sunshine, A radiating light, Peeping through the mulberries, Birds looking for the destined fly, A natural attraction , To be called bounding, Smell of the owned land, Mango tree along the shore, Floating paper boat, Morning rays on my bed, A touch by  hand, Can by felt by own land, Left over dreams far away, For the home town, Rushing through the paddy fields, Ripening songs for maize, Morning in orchards, Chilled water of tape, Every day congregation, Water logged roads, Boats on shoulders, Playing hopscotch, When the rains are all gone, My home town, Will be standing by rainbow....

  So dense to get into, Even not that vivid, to loop , Was so convincing, Could be life long words, An eradicate throwing, Palpating times, To appreciate the moments. Strong support around the dunes, So stoical like a new born baby, Yelling and throbbing stones, Something impeded with, Secure message , With folded papers, Water in force, Holding those unnamed seconds, For to be safe , And so growing tall meadows, Erosion been on tips, Can be massive, O so fragile it has to be.......

Friday evening , He is having train, Miles far he has to cover, And the bags are ready, Waiting for the signal to beep, He had smile for his family, So i had glower, How will i take my days solo, Moments flashing in, Walk on streets, Lightz  off, Sitting on bench, Ride on bike, Domino's pizza, Surprise kiss , Good night hug, Looking at clear sky, To follow me with rain, When i will be all unequaled, I was dense for a while, No eye to eye contact, The tight touch of hand, Eyes reeking , A silence inside, To get him back, So i hate the travel down, And i hate the good bye bid...

Love story:… We were both young when I first saw you I close my eyes And the flashback starts I'm standing there On a balcony in summer air See the lights See the party, the ball gowns I see you make your way through the crowd And say hello, little did I know That you were Romeo, you were throwing pebbles And my daddy said stay away from Juliet And I was crying on the staircase Begging you please don't go, and I said Romeo take me somewhere we can be alone I'll be waiting all there's left to do is run You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess It's a love story baby just say yes So I sneak out to the garden to see you We keep quiet 'cause we're dead if they knew So close your eyes Escape this town for a little while 'Cause you were Romeo, I was a scarlet letter And my daddy said stay away from Juliet But you were everything to me I was begging you please don't go and I sai...

Yes finally at Delhi airport waiting for the flight,its been delayed two times from morning 8:35am...fingers crossed coz flight depends on weather forecast...i want to be home.... Missed you all..... Loove... Jolliieesss:)

And i am moving, I see the path , Shiny and lustrous, No diversion, All the way a single line, Making it up to guide, Shoulders were enough strong, No hair cracks, Green was divider, Macadam made it smooth, And the drive was safe, P.S:- I will be out of station for 10 days,so wont be writing here...and will miss my all good friends here...I am going out for some shopping.....see you all soon...... Love all.... Jolliiees:)

I was in his arms, Nothing to look for mre, We were just into each other, Nothing more to survive, He hold me tight, So do i close my eyes, No boundaries over to think, Had the ultimate springing, Had the strong shoulder, To put on, No thought whirling, The sun was shining, Or must be the stars, Can it be moon light, Coz i  was no more me....

Gazing through the window at the world outside Wondering will mother earth survive Hoping that mankind will stop abusing her sometime After all there's only just the two of us And here we are still fighting for our lives Watching all of history repeat itself Time after time I'm just a dreamer I dream my life away I'm just a dreamer Who dreams of better days I watch the sun go down like everyone of us I'm hoping that the dawn will bring a sign A better place for those Who will come after us ... This time I'm just a dreamer I dream my life away oh yeah I'm just a dreamer Who dreams of better days Your higher power may be God or Jesus Christ It doesn't really matter much to me Without each others help there ain't no hope for us I'm living in a dream of fantasy Oh yeah, yeah, yeah If only we could all just find serenity It would be nice if we could live as one When will all this anger, hate and biggotry ... Be gone? I...

Those few steps, Ahead, So made the miles difference, Those few steps, Too close to comfort, Those few steps, So the house is built again , Those few steps, And the ashes were found, Those few steps, Waves looked rejoining, Those few steps, Area was flooded, Those few steps, The long life..

Dark was the night, Midnight of 17 jan 2010, Lights were closed back time, No view was clear, Mind was blocked, Had only one options to surveil, Consummate darkness for my life, Guess that was to self-annihilation, So was i clunged to the desired option, No body had the thought to disturb my level of choosing it, Was so stubborn to attempt it, Just a move of one sec, And my soul would been flying, And with a flash of light i heard those heavy sounds, Drifting towards me, A golden CHARIOT, I was stunned for the time, And when i saw it , It was my friend in it with a message from god, Guess, Some second option upholding in his hands, And read it loud "MY CHILD YOU HAVE A BEAUTIFUL LIFE", I wondered was it direct for me, This friend read it again and again, So that it can have its true impact on me, I considered myself obstinate, But this voice went direct to change my option -I, For while i thought, I must not listen this voice, The friend standin...

FOLDED WISHES, SURPRISES DOWN IN IT, YUMMY CAKE, WRAPPED GIFTS, PEOPLE AROUND, TIME TO MAKE A WISH, STARS SHINING, MOON ON THE HIGH, SOFT MUSIC ON GUITAR, LIGHT SOOTHING WIND, ALL WAITING FOR YOUR WISH, ALLURE SKY, BIRTHDAY WISH, AND I DROP IN, PEEP THROUGH THE GOLDEN CURTAIN, HANGING FOR THE GAUDY LOOK, THERE ON THE DORM, I COULD SEE, IN BLACK SUIT WITH RED TIE, READ YOUR EYES, A TINGE OF MISSING TIME, WITH THE GRIN FOR OTHERS, THROUGH THE HUSTLE BUSTLE, YOUR WAY LEADS YOU TO ME, I AM THERE, WEARING THE RED DRESS, WHICH I PROMISED FOR U,, WITH THAT SINGLE ROSE, FOR YOU, TO MAKE YOU SURE, I AM STILL YOUR'S AFTER DECADES, WE MADE THE STEPS TOGETHER, WAS ON FALL OF TRUTH, HERE WE ARE AGAIN. SO DO I CLOSE MY EYES, AND WISH ALL THE  HAPPINESS ,TRANQUILITY,SERENE ALL TOGETHER FOR YOU ... YES, MANY MANY HAPPY RETURNS OF THE DAY WITH A PECK.... P.S:- For my fiance.