Escapist-----I'm just a dreamer.

THE FEELING OF CONNECTION,FLEETING AND FREE !!!!!

kuch kehna chahti hou Aur kuch sunna Jiss kehki shah mien hou Aur kafiyat mien Woh sab mahsoos bhi karna chahti hou kuch app nai hain aur kuch parayain Un sab ko bhol jana chahti hou yain jho sansanahat hain Iss ko mahsoos bhi karna chahti hou Jho hoie na appnai Unko boul jana chahti hou Jis sai hum kehtai hain apna Unko saamait kar app nai pass bhi rakh na chahti hou Jin lougo nai ansoo diya Unko rula kar behna chahti hou Jis nai thami meri ahat Unko app nai rang mien rakh na chahti hou Kuch badlai hum is qadar Ki har woh lamha bulna chahti hou Baas us din ka hain intezar jaha kisi ki bahou mien mitt jana chahti hou !

If you can breathe , Means you are exuberant , If you can’t feel, Means you are backwood, If you can walk, Means you are sturdy, If you don’t have hands to hold, Means you are frozen, If you get hurt, Means your body can retaliate , If you can’t love, Means your heart is over, If you have kids, Means u have family, If you don’t have time for them, Means you have nothing, If you have a life , Means you are living , If you have an ego, Means you are insubstantial . ~NM

A feeling and an intution A touch of soft caress A look of baby skin The warmth of Autumn A sensation of being loved Being benevolent The enthusiatic lover Undercovered unconditional love and bond A savage and a heartbeat Those sublime sea shores Tender gentled tone Amiable words fluttering around I need it badly ! As i want to fall in love again !!!

A feeling and an intution A touch of soft caress A look of baby skin The warmth of Autumn A sensation of being loved Being benevolent The enthusiatic lover Undercovered unconditional love and bond A savage and a heartbeat Those sublime sea shores Tender gentled tone Amiable words fluttering around I need it badly ! As i want to fall in love again !

 The emptiness  And the commands  Can’t be handled more  Over and over the time Proving a jerk or a nerd You have become a looser  Don’t be high headed A vacant room Can’t be filled anymore  An empty chair  And an empty glass Holds no more love and care for you !!! Think of yourself Before you loose  You are left out and alone !!!!

 A white blanket  Laid for the heaven  A cold breeze The husky voice Warmth of snow Those cozy steps Around your loved ones Makes me feel I have heaven ! I have heaven ! Courtesy:- Gulmarg ,Srinagar 

That single caresses,  those twinkling eyes and the glittering  ones,a smile on those tiny lips ,  those red cheeks spreading redness , eyes speak the depth of love in it , the shiny teeth and the peace , small beautiful nose takes away all the grin , that warmth in her hug , and the coziness beyond the feel,  those tiny fingers cross through the mind, a beautiful baby in it , a word of peaceful life , My Kids!!!!!!

It has the sound  Underneath  Unseen and unfolded  A steadiness  A sharp sight Below the barefoot  Those tiny toes A toned skin  A happy face  Open mind  The wonders of wonder Longing horizon  And the sharp rays  To me this is life  And this is LOVE

This is the world I live in , Missed it from so long And now could hug it !!!!! I love you snow !!! U make me joy  You make me sing  And you give me smile ..... P.S:-Srinagar #kashmir

A moment to cherish So as to mesmerize  A world to hold A wrath to love ❤️  A golden heart With the joy around  Never want to lose Never want to end A beyond sensation  A great word to describe  Did I hold it Or I lost it ?

Behind the blocked way  Is a sunshine Admired and loved  A very keen and sharp site An edge and a story  That small flower welcomes the brightness  A deep and rough  Mesmerizing  rays and the layers Clear but timid  Rolled and the hidden message A sunshine yet to come So sunny so marvelous  A new day yet to come  So happy so sad Give a LOVE And spread that LOVE  Even that sun through his rays is setting back Leaving the day and welcoming the dark......

A tiredness in the breath .. That back home pat ......... A lovely garden ....,,,,,,,,, And the mothers call ...... Your cozy room............,, Everything tiny in your room.. Makes you feel special and good.. All the memories....... Those cards from friends..... Messed cupboards........ Empty coffee mug .... Those snacks .... Walls scribbled..... And the trash is up filled .... Papers scattered..... Those funny games .... Using nicknames ...... Those calm walks .... And the food plates ... Sisters quarrel .... Hidden chocolates..... Stupid promises ... Rain drops on the window ... Hope beyond those beautiful gardens.. Friends meet up... And those collage bunks .... Early morning Tea .... Late for the school ... Running for the bus.... Dirty clothes ........... Friends gossips ... So I MISS THEM ... SO I MISS THEM ...::

There is something which pulls the string, Let it rhyme let it sing , Let the heart go out to flow, Let those words come out , Let the chore make its way , Let the blues fly away , Let u jump once and twice , Let you feel the air , Let your colors be colorful, Let the motion make its path , Let the stream flows with music , Let that world to sing and say , Let that person say it to you , Let the music go into ur ears , Let your hands draw in your air , Let your body feel that soul , Let it be lighter and lighter , Let the day come with calm and tranquility, Let you say it many times , With the love and serene , The day has come , WHEN YOU WERE BORN ...... Happy birthday!!!!! Let everyone remember me for the day .....

I am blinded or I can’t feel , Or else I can’t touch it , A word or a sentence, A heel or a wound I am deaf or dead , A hunger and a body pain , That numbness and the shivers, Bloody oozing out to show the color , Floor is wet and the tears are rolling , Hands can’t move and the legs can’t walk , Skin has deteriorated and is pale , The HEART sinks and it sinks , So the mind fails to see and understand.... Is there someone with the Humanity ?

Do I really feel like to die , The ambience around The shivers and the chills The heart sinks The body aches The mind stops working Tears flow down Do I feel like to die The suffocation Feeling breathless A no amount of happiness Feels lazy So am I dizzy Nothing to look on and ponder The day is dull Colors have faded Do I feel like to die The open grave And the mistakes done No prayers on the lips Shredded body No soul Scary dreams No worthy of life No grin and no smile Do I feel like to die !!!

Words on the lips , But they are being shutted.... A dream in the eyes , But they say you have to be blind... A kid in the heart , But they say you are grown up.... A hope in the mind , But they roads are blocked.... A playful body , But they say you have been sacked ....

I need some sunrays , I hate over shadows , I need some harmony , I hate over burden , I need some colours , I hate blindness, I need some love , I hate being alone , I need some travel , I hate spoiled brats , I need some oxygen , I hate suffocating , I need some life , I hate hatred....

I am so firm and rigid about it, I am so sure about it , I want to make my life beautiful, I want to be same, what I was 7yrs back .. I want my life back , I deserve it to full.... I think that's Wat is destined, I am happy to accept it, It may take some time but I will be used then..... You don't deserve me and my son.... That's how we will live happily.

So is this page blank and neat, Just a wip and it will be full, Just a hope and there will be happiness, Just a promise and it will be alive, Just a word and it will be fullest, Just a smile and it will be lively, Just a hold and it will be new start, Just a hug and it will be complete......