Soulfulness

I still palpate with the same words,
and same feelings,
I laid down in the moon light,
With closed eyes,
I could see the trustingness between us,
But was still marveling around,
Does that mean we still are far enough,
To make and show it,
To be single Soulfulness,
I was Thoughful ,
We have bond a tough knot,
Guess it was stargazing,
I never kept my feelings
Underneath,
And always tried to look after for yours,
Could find the same,
As u never spoke up,
I thought it's
All what i wanted to have,
For the complete and perfect relation,
I was  trying know you better,
Your virulent nature,
Was making it tough,
You had vitiating thoughts,
Though i was out of it,
Here i knew then,
You were opposite of me,
I tried to compromise,
But it got over to SACRIFICE,
So i breath heavily,
And got more involved,
Could see the other face of life,
Because of you,
I rolled up my bed with tears,
Ever now and then,
I never believed it,
It was long time we spend,
But still find you different every time,
So where you possessive ,
And turned into aggressiveness,
So thought to take back my words for you,
I love you still,
But don't want to live with you,
Is quite confusing and muddling,
How would i know about your decission,
I want to take this up ,
And adjudicate the worthy living,
Should ,
I compromise ?
I sacrifice ?
I expect you to change ?
Or leave your prints...........